It rages and swirls It’s never relenting
Never ceasing its battering waves
Eroding your edges night and day
The storm clouds writhe
Intensity rises, boiling and bubbling, sucking out all light
Freezing shut, your lungs and ability to see
Shades of dark all around never allowing the light to ground
The sun shines outside and the bird song continues
Yet the inner storm is a raging foaming beast
A terror thing, never allowing a moment's peace
A horror so enormous your lost within
Squeezing and hiding you pushing into the deepest darks of the fear
The ground a thing felt under your feet
Yet not felt for the unseen storms raging breath
A feeling so intense, you cannot breathe
Stop!
Cease
Calm
So I may breathe and feel a seed of worthwhile
But it doesn’t stop
It never stops, it batters on
Like the white squall storms
For days and nights, the feelings run
Fear and unworthiness, the drivers this time
Hate and the pain for a thing said that can’t be undone
A constant feeling of causing others pain,
A constant reminder again and again.
I said a thing
I created this pain; I am no good
I am no name
I am shame and doubt
Filled with despair
Lashed with anxiety
I do not belong here; I do not belong, a waste of space that all went wrong
The feelings ebb a small slip but intensity rises
There it is, a glitch
What is it I feel I don’t know I can’t feel
I don’t know after so long how to feel
Numbness drives me
There is no feeling it is real
The storm is battering me at every breath
Growing and boiling a writhing mess
Let me breathe, please let me breathe
Let me see as clearly as need be
Let the comfort of reality come back to me.
Let me feel
Let me be free.
About the Creator
Donna Morgan
I am a lover of the mystical the magical and the spiritual.
I write to heal myself and to share my journey with anxiety and life that I experience through my feelings.
I love to write it is my healing place.
Comments (3)
This was so poignant! Very beautifully written!
This poem is about how I feel during the hard times. Read mine? https://vocal.media/fiction/fuchsia-and-her-podcast
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