Imposter Syndrome
a late night freestyle spiral
What am I,
But a silly little monkey
Pounding away at my keyboard
Like a child with a toy?
What makes my thoughts worthy of attention?
Why are you bothering to give me attention?
Why do I hate it, yet,
Why do I crave it?
The validation of being seen,
The horrifying ordeal of being perceived,
Where is the balance in my mind?
Why am I so willing to try again and again,
Convinced that I am somehow worthy of
The time and space I occupy,
And when that conviction is
Positively Reinforced
by Kindness
and Encouragement
I am suddenly an
Imposter?
a Fool?
a Jester?
Worthy of Nothing
But my own Ridicule?
Why can I not be as kind to myself
As complete strangers-
Silent voices stretching
Through expanses of blue light-
Are to me?
Maybe somedayI can convince myself
to shut up
And simply take a compliment.
Until then,
I am an Imposter,
Imposing on time and space
That I have no right to occupy.
And I'll keep telling myself
To just shut up already.
About the Creator
M. A. Mehan
"It simply isn't an adventure worth telling if there aren't any dragons." ~ J. R. R. Tolkien
storyteller // vampire // drink goblin // arizona desert rat
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Comments (16)
you so perfectly expressed how it feels to have to exist as an eternally imperfect being and how much it can drive us all up a wall. amazing work here!
“Why can I not be as kind to myself as complete strangers?” I felt this deeply. Imposter syndrome is a brutal feat to overcome. Great piece!
So nice
Great capture of this feeling I think all writers feel at least once if not on a constant! Congrats on TS!
Favorite line: What makes my thoughts worthy of attention? I ask myself this daily. It's a hard hurdle to get over, I am glad you were able to overcome it.
Relatable poem! Congrats on top story :)
Imposter Syndrome it's something we have to deal with sooner or later, who knows if there is a cure! 😊
Congrats on Top Story!
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😊👏 I struggle with compliments too! Good on your for putting yourself out there! (That was a compliment!) 😁
Very relatable! And very well done!
Back to say congratulations on your Top Story! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Congrats on Top Story!🥳🥳🥳
I know very well about that.... good piece
I think most of us would be able to relate to this. But please know that you and your words are worthy! Never stop writing!
Ah, we all suffer from imposter syndrome. Take the compliment, I say. Believe it! We know who we think we are but people see us bety differently. But that's their reality of us and who are we to question it?