Matthew Primous
Bio
I am a Black Scholar, International Scholar, & Google Scholar, & 3-Time Eber & Wein Best Poet., Nominee for Poet of the Year, 2020 Black Author Matters Winner, 2 time Akademia Excellence Essayists,& 2022 Honorary Muckrack Journalist.
Stories (325/0)
First Grandmother serving
Yes my son finally won and I was sitting with my grandchildren and talking on the phone with Mrs. Claudy. Mrs. Claudy was my friend since I came out of college. She was a good friend and she advised me on my career. She inspired me to run. We were young and feminists. We were driven by that platform and we party too to that platform. I remember Mrs. Claudy was my best friend. And we did everything together. I knew everything about her and she knew everything about me. And I would tell her about my big problems. She was always reliable. And now we both have grandchildren. We both have our own lives but we reached out to each other every now and then. When I heard my son say my name on live TV with his wife and Vice President standing with him, I almost drop the phone. And I told Mrs. Claudy who was congratulating me that I can't serve again. I can't serve in the government. I resigned like twenty years ago. I haven't even considered running or serving. And Mrs. Claudy reminded me that she had military family. And she would talk about how they served. And I said Della Claudy I understand your position but I have to think about it. And Mrs. Claudy knew when I talk like that political that I really was uncertain. And so after sometime, my son called me but I was avoiding him because I did not want to serve. I would put my phone on do not disturb. And finally he came out to me saying you know Mom I know you watched the news. You are the First Grandmother. And I did that because you were my main supporter. I need you in Congress and I need you in the White House. We come so far. We did so much. And I still was minding my own business. And he sought the Secret Service a distance away and he said Mommie would I hurt you? Would I put you in an compromising position. You can do this. I believe in you. I need my mother. I need the woman who bear me. I need the woman who footsteps I am walking in. And I warmed up but I said Bernie you can't butter me up. I don't want to be involved. Those people torture me, they intimidated me, they persecuted me. How could you expect me to go back? What I did for you with Harold Senator Forge was a one time deal. I did not want you to expect me to go into the White House. And Bernie turned, sad and desperate and left in his car. And I looked worried and distraught. Eventually Bernie's wife came, Cindy saying You love our children. You love me and you love Bernie. You are still alive Mother Betty. And they did not break you. You are stronger than ever. And your son need you. Your son is begging asking you. And why would you turn away remember the country, remember the union remember the party. You still owe it to them. You still are indebted to the people. And I told Cindy after she convinced me that I would do it. I finished golfing with Mrs. Claudy and our cadies were friends. And Mrs. Claudy asked if I took the job. She said retirement is hell boring as hell and sometimes I think some people wait to die or spoiled the hell out of their savings. Betty you can lead us to better benefits. You can show that we still got it. Betty do it for all of us. And I drink a little and reminded Mrs. Claudy of our college days. Bernie and Cindy was waiting for me in Washington D.C. I came on a helicopter issued by the President my son. And I hug and shook hands with the President and the First Lady. And I told the press simply, You mess with President Bernie, you mess with me. Not only because he is my beloved son but also because he is a good president and he wants to restore the union the way it should have been hundreds of years ago. And that is the most honorable thing I could think of. He is my President and your President.
By Matthew Primousabout 21 hours ago in Families
The President's Right Hand
It was many years ago since the funeral of Pete who was my right hand man. The funeral was heartbreaking and devastating because my men knew Pete. They knew what he stood for and they knew what he was about. We all agreed that Pete saved all of us that night. And Pete made us cry all over again at his funeral. Pete was cremated but he was given the honor of a dignified soldier. The men told their memories of him and they were glad to have known him. And the President was there and said a few words because the mission was that important. And the President awarded all of us Purple Heart. And they gave the Purple Heart and the flag to Pete's sister who made a speech about how Pete loving serving in the military and how he felt it was his calling and duty. And how Pete came from a military family and how Pete was loyal and a Patriot. Months later after the funeral, Camelle had a boy whom I named Pete. And we were excited about our new life. And we were filled with ambitions and hope. And I vowed to never fight again, to never enter the forces. I told my wife Camelle that I will never take the uniform on again. And Camelle got pregnant again this time to a girl that she named Husha. And I was enjoying my job as a military counselor because I told Pete that I would give back and help the troops. I was good at counseling and I was able to walk many people through their issues and recoveries. I was good at helping people. And I did not want to do anything else. My life was great and I was stable. I was conformed. I was different. And then the call, my commander commended me and told me that I am one of the best. He told me that I am one of the most loyal. He told me that I was fit and honorable. And I interrupted my commander saying I can't go back. I can't be a soldier anymore. I can't do it anymore. I promise my wife and children that I will be loyal to family first and only. And the commander said you thought I was sending you out again no. Harack my man buddy you are being appointed as an advisor to the President. And I almost drop the phone and I told the commander to let me talk to my family about it. And I was nervous about telling my family. How could I tell my wife? How could I tell my children? So I took my wife and children out to dinner and discussed it over dinner. And Camelle knew I was up to something but she went along with the kids. I finally said what I was thinking about the new prestigious job. And Camelle said Honey you could be president. You could run this country. I believe in you. And maybe you should take the job. We can buy a new house instead of the apartment and prepare for college for the kids. And I got up and kiss my wife and kiss my children while hugging them. And so in the morning I called the commander and took the job. It was nothing like what I thought. All this communication and the Director who work with the President was my boss. She was kind and stern. She gave me my first test. And I had to come up with strategies after strategies and not like the military. But I did then I felt burnout and I called my wife Camelle and she reminded me of Pete. She said Do what Pete did. I got a picture of him and of us. Just look to that and think of what he did for you for all those years you were in the military. And after that conversation, I came up with a ton of ideas. And the Director looked it over being busy with the President and she called me back in a hour and said Harack congratulations you are the President's Right Hand.
By Matthew Primous2 days ago in Confessions
The Right Hand Man
It all started back in the army. I was just a young sergeant learning the new ropes and the new protocol. I was naive and inexperience. And everything taught in class did not actually add up in the real world. I was young and ready for action. I was trained, well trained and taught everything I believe matter. The testing was rigorous. And sometimes I thought about backing down. Sometimes I wanted to quit but my family was and is a military family. A family that does not back out of conflict. A family that stands with its troops. A family that will never quit or cower. That was my family Harack and I made many friends along the way. I had many friends who would calm my nerves and keep me stable. And many of them were in my troops. Pete was the most loyal. Every time I had an issue, he knew what to do. Every time I was stress he knew what to do. He was my best friend. He would remind me of where I came from. He would encourage me. The life of a commander is hard. The life of any officer is difficult especially when you worry about your men day and night because losing one of them could end your career, could end your hopes and dreams could end your future. I thought hard and long about every mission. I did not take it for granted. Pete would come in and check in on me when I was planning how to accomplish the mission. And Pete would offer insight into what I should do. Pete also introduced me to the love of my life, a Captain. I love women in a uniform. Her family was immigrants but Camelle was the perfect woman. She was a darling and a dream. She was a fantasy and sight. She blew my mind out the first time I saw her. And Pete was the wing man to get me her number. Pete told her how brave I was. Pete told her how smart I was. Pete told her how strong I was. Pete was my right hand man. And so when I was promoted, I did not forget my friends. I did not forget my brothers. They were family. Even though I was planning to build a family with Camelle, I still was loyal all the way and totally. And so when my men and I was sought on this dangerous mission, I propose and married Camelle. And spent several months with her and she was pregnant. And she told me and I only told Pete. Pete was happy and we did our special handshake and hug. I promised to tell my men after the battle. It was the toughest battle of my life. Every minute was nerve-wracking. I told my men to keep the gun by them at all times both day and night. We were in the heat of battle. And we did not lose anyone that easy or yet. And my commander ordered me to move from the position to gain ground. I tried to tell him it is dangerous and hard and difficult but he reminded me that he was the commander and I was just an officer. So I had to choose who should go, I told my men that the fight is hard and difficult but whoever go will be given valiant and honor. I said for the glory of the union the glory of the military united we stand but divided we fall. And Pete was the first to go with me and numerous of other men went and we kept most of them at the base. And so we went it was hard going through machine gun fire but we formed a shield and made it in the first position then the second but the third, a man was left behind and I went to get him and Pete covered me. The man was shot severely and I pulled him back and asked Pete and the other men to cover. But it was not enough, the enemy started throwing grenades and one came near me. And Pete reacted and screamed and saw it and threw his bag over it and push me out the way. And that was it Pete died. And a few others were severely wounded. I will never forget the look on the other soldiers and on his family. And the look on Camelle's face, my right hand man was gone and I never looked at war the same again.
By Matthew Primous3 days ago in Confessions
Arthur & Harry Adventures Next
It's been a while since our first discovery. A lot has happened and changed over time. The atmosphere of crime has drastically been reborn. And criminals were not the way they used to be. They did not act the way they used to. They were a lot of more complicated and a lot more sneaky. And detectives changed too. They were more disguised and confiscated. They were a lot of more driven for success and more ready to put people in jail. We had a certain protocol. We had a certain quota. And we were demanded to keep crime down and catch many criminals within a short time. We also changed. Harry and I got promoted. Harry finally married Fasha. And Fasha was a lovely woman like my Irene. She was fair and had long hair and beautiful brown eyes. Harry was mad in love for her and he would never let her out of his sight. The two were inseparable. And they would always kiss and hold hands as if they were love birds or just dating when they were happily married for many years. Irene and I used to do that but now we have kids, a few. They are handsome and beautiful. They fill my mind with excitement. I hope to get to a hundred years old seeing them grow, play, laugh, live, and love. My family has become the center of my world. Being a father has never been so important and so wonderful at the same time. Irene would have to tell me to get back to work and crime because I could play with my kids all day. And so ever often I would talk to Harry about family. Harry was loving his life being married and he was not yet ready to be father. He was not ready to become a father. Me and Fasha are doing well together. We can't change that now. We are still on our honeymoon said Harry. But do you want to have kids? They are wonderful, amazing and beautiful, said I. Then the Chief of the Scotland Yard interrupted us Boys you better get back to work because I think there is more to do. Then you can talk about family and love or whatever. We have another copycat. We have another criminal spree. This one I think knows about your previous cases and is mimicking them. We have a real case and it is not good not good at all. I think you better take sometime and read the file. And he handled us a big folder of evidence. And I asked Harry who do you think it is? Who do you think done this? And why would they want to reopen a case? Harry said it says here that they were men or women involved but some believe it is one or the other. And that they are very exclusive. We have to go to that club. I said what club do you mean? Harry said The Jitters Club and speak to the manager. I think that he is up to something because most of the case surrounds that club. And I said Let's go today. And Harry said But I promsied Fasha. And I said But the boss wants the case crack immediately. And Harry agreed and told his wife Fasha that he could not go and that she can reschedule. And so we were off to Jitters Club on Cap Street in the City of London. Harry said this is exciting, the club where all the famous people go and celebrities. I said it's just a bunch of druggies and drunks in here. Harry said Yeah but the music is great. Don't you say. The bouncer asked who we were? And we said Police Scotland Yard. We need to speak to the manager. So the bouncer got the manager while we wait at the bar. And hours later the manager came out. Hello my name is Silvera. And we asked for a private room to quesiton her. And Harry said Remember good cop and bad cop. I am playing the bad cop. So I said Silvera you see a lot of people coming and in out. Do you recognized this picture? And she asked for a lawyer. Harry said How do you run your business? What exactly do your employees do? She gave a list and slip saying they do whatever I say. Even if it means commitiing murder or crime, or theft or stealing. I am the boss and I don't give a crap for the Scotland Yard. Harry said you are under arrest Silvera. And I put handcuffs and called for backup. And we shut the club down for its crime spree. And Harry got a raise and I did too. We finally got together and went on family outing. And Fasha was in love with our children and they called her Aunt Fasha. And Harry knew then that the honeymoon was over and fatherhood was starting.
By Matthew Primous3 days ago in Writers
Arthur & Harry Adventure
Awarded the Queen's Honor and in line for the King's Honor, I Detective Arthur and my trusted aide Harry have been through many adventures together. We were alike in many ways yet our appearances are quite different. I love the sport of catching criminals while Harry is a bit uncertain whether exploiting it is good. We are two of the kind and close pals. We were friends since the Academy. We learned a lot about crime fighting in the Academy. And we were almost done when the war broke out. We signed up for the same unit but we were given different missions. Harry was told to operate the radar while I lead a force. We were both successful in our military career but we both yearned for more. We both wanted to be more than bloody hands. We wanted to go back to the Academy. So after the war, the Great War we returned home to recuperate. And we got with our families and we begin to think about our future and our families. And Harry went back to the Academy earlier than me. And he wrote me from the Academy how the Academy was good and I should come back because he learned much from the military and applying his knowledge to the studies. I was uncertain and took more time. Until my wife beautiful Irene who was an Irish rose just lovely with Blue Eyes and Red Hair. She became my wife after the Great War and we wanted to start a family. And I was given good payment from the military but it was mainly going towards our bills. And so Irene convinced me to go back to the Academy. And so I returned and Harry was my tutor. I at first was concerned. I did not want to dishonor my military duties but I needed the job. So Harry tutored me and showed me how to study. And I begin to become infatuated with the crime thing the whole crime system. It intrigued me about the criminal mind and the mastermind. I even had to play a criminal because my professor wanted to show what a crime look like. And I was convincing and good. The whole class was in an uproar. It happened that Harry and I was put on a mission while finishing the Academy. The criminal committed numerous of murders in a grand larceny and thief plot but they could not tell if it was a man or a woman or a gang. And the witness was not talking. I prepared for this final test and exam with Harry, my best friend. Harry thought we should grill and then offer assistance but I thought the witness is used to that. Maybe we should play good cop and bad cop. Harry asked which one was I gonna play and I said the bad cop and you play the good cop. And so Harry wished me good luck and I wish him good luck because we needed to pass in order to get our badge. And so the witness seem distraught and disturb. Harry went first and the witness appear close-minded. And I would grill the witness. And after sometime we walk out, I told Harry what do you think the witness is hiding? And Harry said I think it is personal. I said yes let's get personal. We walked back in. I said you called yourself Athena but you have a massive structure, you have a low voice, you don't have any femine appearance. And the witness said so. Harry came in We can help you. We can protect you. You do know if you cooperate we can give you assistance. The witness said I am not cooperating. Leave me alone. I said I see you in a dress and lipstick but you still sound and look manly. If you aren't manly then why do you have a mustache and beard too. Then the criminal spoke Okay okay I will talk. It was my partners who did the crime. And they left me behind to get caught by the police. Those bastards. Two partners. Harry said what is their name Hal and Ris. I said Where are they? The witness said probably at the border to cross. Better hurry. Harry said Thank you Madam. You are safe as long as you officially file the report. Even though you might face some charges, your cooperation is appreciated. And our professor met us outside the classroom, the Scotland Yard will take it from here. Good job. And that's how we became in line for the Queen's Honor winning it eventually in our 20 years career in the Scotland Yard after graduating the Academy and fighting the Great War.
By Matthew Primous3 days ago in Writers
The Heartache
Doctor never stop trying to fix others. She would work hard and make sure that everyone was cared for. She would check in on others. She was a kind woman. She was a good woman. And I remember her, she loved the Lord and she loved people. She was a strong woman and of good character. She reflected herself among the foundation that she started with her husband. She was a bold woman. I remember her hugs and good conversation. Doctor was rich. She had orchards and land and homes. But she was humble, she knew where she came from and where she was going. Doctor did not begrudge working hard and fighting for good causes. And she was strong, she was brave, and she was a overall good person. Doctor never hated working hard. And she had worked hard to build a family with her husband. She came from humble beginnings. She never intended any harm. And she never tried to offend anyone. She was just a good person. Then it happened that her husband suddenly died on a trip to Africa trying to save the orphanage. She was devastated but she held on. And all the people he helped came to support her. People from around the world and she could not help herself but to cry over her beloved husband. She never questioned God why but she knew her mission was to still heal. She knew she had to hold on for her family and the foundation. Doctor requested that 'My Help Cometh for the Lord' be played at her husband's funeral. She cried but with strength and dignity. She was not afraid to let her feelings show. She was not afraid to be surrounded but she knew she was loved and she knew her family was loved and she knew her husband was loved. She heard the stories of her husband's friends. She heard the tributes pouring in and she started to smile again. And she was warm and happy. She knew that her husband lived a well life. And I gave her my assistance. i came back to the foundation. I started going to the foundation when I was sick in the hospital because her husband was wide acclaimed. He was a good doctor too and he encouraged me to fight for life. I remember her husband as if he was still living. That man could do good works and he did not stop even when falling. And he had an infectious character that filled the foundation. I was inspired to work for the foundation and his wife Doctor invited me to become a full time worker. I took the charge as if it was life important. Now that her husband passed, I treated Doctor as if she was my own mother or a mother like figure. Sometimes we would celebrate by singing and dancing and partying when the foundation made numerous of successes. I remember working hard in college and at the foundation. The work was prestigious and the work was good. The work was character building and the work was structural. I did not mind serving because the foundation kept me going. And the leaders were inspired by the founders. Then the unthinkable happened, I just saw Doctor and I heard she passed. And something in me died, I cried over and over again. All I could think of is the songs that we sang together when celebrating. I cried all the way through getting ready one day. And I was just down and hurt. I could not stop. But I remember the good as there was bitter fighting over the foundation and its future. I just kept praying and praying. And then I let go and let God. Every now and then I could hear those songs and shed tears. When people that special entered your life, you just don't forget. You remember. You loved. You think and you do. You are forever changed. You are never the same. You are better for that. And they become the midwife for your new life. The midwife for your future. That's what Pastor Osteen or TD Jakes or Joyce Meyers said before. And that's what the Doctor and her husband were to me..
By Matthew Primous4 days ago in Confessions
The Bridge
It was heartbreaking my son JC was diagnosed with an illness. He was a tall boy and he was good at football. He would love playing with his siblings. He was a good son but he just did not always have the right friends at time. But he did not deserve a mental illness that took a toll on the family. Everybody was worried about him especially when he had a mental illness. He was a family issue. He was a sibling issue. He was our issue. And I tried to get his father to be more in his life. Sometimes my husband would be in his life and sometimes he did not have the time. I tried to comfort him but it was not good enough. He wanted and needed his father. He looked up to his father and he wanted to become just like him. JC was a good kid and he never tried to do something wrong. He was a giant among his friends standing at 6 feet and six inches. And he was also fast and smart and talented at sports. But it happened his father said something to him and JC ranaway from home with some friends. And I remember searching all night and day, asking neighbors, and asking family and friends. I was hurt and hurt badly. And I felt that his father could have done more. I did blame his father because I felt that if he was a little bit more compassionate instead of ignoring his son then his son would have never thought to runaway. But it was no use. I begin to cry and pray. I begin to hope and have faith after talking to God. And I had to forgive his father for what he said to our son to make him runaway. And I went by our old high school and there JC was lying on the ground. So I shouted for joy and had tears of joy but JC was hurt. I called his father from off of work and told him to come and said that I called the ambulance. I told him to hurry as he was apologizing and worried. And I held my son in my arms to the best of my ability as he was a huge boy, a giant son. And I tried to tell him it was okay and that I love him. And I tried to sing a song that I sung when he was a toddler and baby. And I begin to sing to comfort him and I prayed to God to save my son. And I kissed my son on the forehead. And he finally woke up saying slowly Mom Mom Mom. I am sorry. My friends tried to take me somewhere but I did not want to go. They weren't friends with me. They were using me. They were just a group of bad friends and they wanted my money and that's when I walk away and they beat me up. And the ambulance begin to put him out on the stretcher and wrap his head. And I told them to be gentle and that's my son and I want to go with him. And his father came with the police. His father hugged me and said he would follow. I rode with my son in the ambulance and I was holding his hand as the first responder was getting his vitals. And about an hour we got to the local hospital. They found that JC was alright and that he had a few broken bones but he was mostly safe physically. And the nurse asked if he had pre-existing conditions. And I asked her what she mean? She gave examples and I said yes. I am sorry but this is so overwhelming for me and my son. I am just glad he is safe. And she said Madame his mental illness may have progressed but he can still live long and get better. And I said Can I just have a minute? I need to refresh my mind. I just need to know my son is okay. And the nurse said he is. And as soon as I left, his father came in the hospital and he was asking me questions but I told him that I was not feeling well and I had to go get ready for the day and that I will be back. And to keep watch over our son. And his father called me and he stood at the hospital for hours and hours. I would call at work to check in on him and promising JC to cook his favorite meals. And eventually his father kept coming for the family for days. The doctors kept him in the hospital because they wanted to make sure he was safe. I was worried about telling the rest of the family about his conditions because I did not want them to react. And I wanted my husband to apologize and connect with his son while I figure out about the family. Then I eventually came back to myself and came to the hospital unexpectedly and caught his father flirting with the nurse. And I don't know if she kissed him or he kissed her, and I flipped. I said Hey Mister. You think you are some hero. You think you are so great. Can't keep your eye on your son for a minute? Busy getting it on with the nurse. And he said I'm sorry I'm sorry Babe I'm sorry. And I walked the other way and found my son's room. And he was up and alert and I said Baby are you feeling better? Momma's here. I just was happy you came back and I wanted your father to watch over you but he has his mind on other things. JC said Dad did take care of me but Mom I would rather have you. And I hugged my son while he was laying in the bed. And his father came in and said we should talk. I have to talk to your mother. And I finally and eventually agreed, I told him to keep his voice down and that our son doesn't need to hear this. And his father said I watched him. I cared for him and you just left. I said you wanna argue about this. I found him. And I was not feeling well. And our son's illness may progress. Who found him? Who cried night and day over him. And you are playing with some fluesy. You are acting like some big man. And he tried to give me flowers. And I took them and said James you are gonna wish you never talk to me that way. I am divorcing you. I don't have to take that. The kids are coming with me. And I am coming after the house and you are gonna pay. And I walked in and said Son Momma have to go. And his father walked away. After my son came home and was feeling well, I kicked his father out of the house by court order, filed for a separation and testified about how I did way more than my husband. And my husband was confident then he held his head down when he lost the divorce. And I said I told you I would get everything, the family, and the marriage. But I won't take everything from you, you still are the father of our kids and I was the bridge and you kept troubling this marriage too long. And I had to take a stand. Bye James but it is not forever just now until you learned to see me for me.
By Matthew Primous4 days ago in Confessions
The Goodman
I worked for Mrs. Carpenter for many years. Mrs. Carpenter was a well to do woman. She was lovely and successful. She was happily married. And I love my job. I get paid to advise. I get paid to help people decorate. And so my job hooked me up with Mrs. Carpenter. She was a high profile client. And my boss wanted me to do everything in my power to make her feel welcome. And so we met and Mrs. Carpenter admired me. She was very welcoming and kind. She saw my plans on the second outing and she loved everyone of them. She loved my mind and my thoughts. She was just a good woman who saw my potential. And I asked to meet her husband. And Mrs. Carpenter said that he is away and that she is the main payer of the renovations. And that he allows her to do whatever. And so I was respectful and never asked again. Mrs. Carpenter asked for luxury. She asked for exquisite. She asked for Versailles. And I had to work really hard on the plans. I was one of the best interior designers on this side of the country. I put everything into fixing her house. She was very confiscated and she was very poise. She wanted the best and better. She wanted the best house in the region. And she wanted better than her neighbor. And I had to do many things to fulfill her fantasy. And when we finally after months got her plans, Mrs. Carpenter asked for me to oversee it. And I told her I was not qualified but she was persistent. And so my boss gave in for an additional bonus fee and Mrs. Carpenter happily paid. I usually would work days but I started working both nights and days for Mrs. Carpenter. My friends started to notice that I kept away from them. I was not going to the bar and I was not hanging out with them. I was completely dwelt on working and they called many times wondering where I've been and when I get off. But I promised them that I would make it up to them when I get that big paycheck on the weekends. And Mrs. Carpenter inquired that I come even late at night because that's when I could see what the contractors finished for the day. And so I came many nights, I had to dress up because that was my job protocol. I was alone and professional. And then one night Mrs. Carpenter dressed in robe said You seem like a goodman. You seem very smart, handsome, and strong. What I would like in a man? And I said I thought you were married. And she open the robe in lingerie and said my husband is always away doing something and I don't know. She begin to cry and try to embrace. And I tried to calm her down. She just kept crying and then she grab me and begin kissing. And I tried to fight her off but I had not been with my girlfriend in a while. I had not been with anyone in a while. I was lonely, desperate and wanting. And so I gave in to Mrs. Carpenter. And then I left in the morning. She was madly in love and happy. And I went away on the weekend. And I even went to church but something the pastor said got to me. He said you think your sins doesn't stink. You think you can do wrong and be right. You think you can make a mess and it will be fix. But God knows. All secrets belong to God and he will reveal them. And I left the church and went home and I called Mrs. Carpenter and said I could recommend another designer but she was mad for me. I avoided work many days and my boss threatened to fire me but he blackmailed me to work on and on and to continue the relationship. My friends heard and tried to help me. They found a loophole in the employment contract. And I quit. I lost my career. I lost my job. And I lost my dignity. Then I turned on the radio and the pastor said all is not lost all is not lost. You have your dignity. you have your respect. God still loves you and care. And I stopped the car and my head fell into my hands as I was miserable and down and depressed. And I said if there is a God I asked for his forgiveness and help me Lord. Help me. And immediately a thought came Open your own business. And I took the money for my unemployment and started my own company ethically. My story.
By Matthew Primous4 days ago in Confessions
Enough
Me and Beverly were hitting way back. Way back when we were just teenagers. She was the finest thing that I ever saw. She was young and beautiful. She was hot and amazing. I wanted her but she just wanted to be friends. Ever since then I dreamed of her. I dreamed of what it would be like to be with her. She was my fantasy. I wanted to be with her for a long very long time. She was dreamy. She had the most beautiful hair. She had the most perfect curves. She was everything a man wanted and everything a man needed. She was enough. Enough period. And I was waiting for my chance. I was dying to get with her. And we caught up from now and then. She told me about her career successes. And I told her about how I wanted to be a doctor then an astronaut then a businessman. We dreamed together. And we met in the exact same place under the stars in the park at night. I drove my new car and I would have it smell like flowers. And I would give her a rose at the end of the night just to say if I can be your man I would. She would just smile over me and call me her friend. We never kissed and we never made out. We just simply enjoyed being with each other. We were like childhood friends. We were best friends and we were secret with our affections. It shocked me when Beverly came out with the fact that she was going out on a date with Trevor. I was totally angry but I knew that I would have to wait it out wait for my time. She was madly in love with him. She was excited to be with him. Most of our conversation was about him and her. And I gave some advice. Then I asked my grandmother, she was still young at heart and she knew more about dating than me and grandma could keep a secret that Mom and Dad could not. I told grandma that I love Beverly and that I wanted to be with her. And she asked me why didn't you tell her? And I said that I was scared and plus grandma she got somebody. And grandma hugged me and held my face with her hands and she said Son you got to know when to try. You got to know that you are enough. Don't read somebody. Don't fool yourself. You know how far you came. You know that you are a man. And that you are man enough. You can be a strong man. You can be a good man. You can be good to any woman. You are enough. You are exactly what she need. Just believe in your heart. And say it with me and I said Enough. And grandma kiss me on the cheek and wipe her lipstick and said That's my baby, he is a man a good man a strong man a smart man and he is good enough for anyone including Beverly. So I waited and waited weeks and weeks. Beverly was happy about her relationship and she did not have much time for me. And I started dating Sarah and Sarah was not bad to look at but she was no Beverly. And it happened that we ran into each other after many dates to Beverly and Trevor. And the situation was odd, Beverly played it off like me. We doubled dated at the State Fair. And that night was awkward. And then Sarah and Trevor caught us staring at a daze at each other. Trevor got lost somewhere and ignored Beverly. And Sarah got sick on one of the rides and wander off. And it was just Beverly and I, and we walk together that night. And we then held hands over the bridge and I would of asked but I did not want the night to end. Then after sometime I asked Beverly are you choosing me. She said Maybe. And I said don't play with my heart Beverly if you want me then want me if you love me then love me. And Beverly lean in and kiss me on the lip then it became passionate the second time. And Trevor caught us and he was threatening to fight. And Beverly said Where were you? Looking at some cheap tail. Eyes roaming, hands touching. I am through with you Trevor and you can kiss this good bye. Trevor resisted and said So you finally got with that geek. I don't care ain't nothing but a chicken wing. Saving for marriage, I had girls who would put out when I put out. Bye. Beverly was gonna fight him but I held her and gently touch her face said He ain't worth it. Look at me you are enough. You are smart. You are beautiful You are damn sexy. You don't need that loser. Enough. She said yeah I am all he needs enough. Sarah never came back that night, she went home because she was sick and I broke up with her. And now I finally got with Beverly and we were taking it slowly after a lifetime of waiting. And she told me she never loved a man the way she loved me.
By Matthew Primous5 days ago in Confessions
Abby's Journey
Love lifted at me love lifted at me when I was sinking deep in sin. Love lifted me Love lifted me Love lifted me when nothing else could help Love lifted me. Yup that's us the children choir at Saint Martin Christian School. We used to sing all the time. We used to sing when we are happy. We used to sing when we were sad. The minister said God bless the child that keeps his word and praises. And I would sing at home. I would sing while playing. I would sing while dancing. I would sing at school. And some children would listen closely and say that I could sing really good. My name is Abby Abbot. My father was a construction worker and my mother was a teacher. We would laugh and play before dinner. And Daddy would asked me what I am doing each day? I would say nothing much but singing. I mean I love learning but I really love singing. Daddy and I was close. Momma would interrupted the conversation when it became quiet. And my brother would like making fun. My little brother was funny and silly. He could make anyone laugh. He loves playing. Anyway we are about six years apart. Momma said she did not know if she could have another child. And my parents fell on hard times and they could not afford to have many children. I feel lucky and blessed. Lucky to have such good parents and blessed to be alive. I don't know if I would be the same if Dad and Mom did not give birth to me. I don't know if I would have existed but I am sure grateful. Thank you Daddy for loving Mom. Thank you Mommie for loving Dad. I love my family. Daddy said I am turning 13 years old soon and he was planning my party. I told Dad that I don't want a party. And Dad said you are becoming a woman. You are starting to change and grow and become beautiful. Guys may notice and you should not be afraid to be a woman that is what you are made to be. You hear. And Momma interrupted Daddy don't understand that it is a hard time for her. She still wants to be young and she still need her parents to guide her. She is still discovering herself and her wants her needs. And what it is like to be a woman and what a man is like. Remember. Dad said Oh I remember. Hang out with your girlfriends and you can stay out a little longer Abby. Momma said One step at a time. A child can't walk at once. A child can't climb a staircase at once. You got easssssy into it. My parents gesture to me and I said slowly Okkkkay. And I walked into my bedroom, Momma gonna make me do more chores. Dad's gonna make me more responsible. But am I ready. I love being a kid. I love being myself. I love being around my parents but growing up is difficult. Although I am curious about being around my friends. I laid on my bed and dream. i dream of being older and mature. I dream of being free and without rules and restrictions. I dream of having many friends. I dream of working and playing grown up games. I dream of boys getting older. Then I was interrupted my mother called me down the stairs. Abby Abby Abby I know you hear me girl. Your friend is on the phone said Momma. I asked her which one and said I am coming. Brenda what is it? No I can't go. No I can't go. I am going through something. Yes I am changing and growing up. It's not a joke. Yeah Yeah Yeah but okay. Momma and Daddy pretended that they were not listening and they were excited. You can go out with your church friend just be home before 9am. Mom and Dad surprised and laugh and talk about what they think I would do. I don't know why Brenda is calling me now. She probably wants to party. She probably thinking about boys. I am just going to win Mom and Dad trust then I am going get more privileges. And just after I was ready my little brother knocked he said Abby you are growing up. You are growing up Mom and Dad said. Are you leaving me? I said while hugging my little brother No bro I am just doing things that you will do one day you will see. My brother said good bye. Momma was looking at my dress and outfit and she said it was cute and nice. And Dad drove me he said Ahh you are growing up don't be afraid to call home if anything anything happen emergency or you want something or if it is important. So I knocked while Dad waited. Brenda introduced me to her cousin and Dad left. Her cousin tried to get me alone but Brenda was watching. He told me about himself and his life how he used to be in the gang and he was gonna show a picture of his weapon. And he wanted to kiss but I was not ready. He told me that he was a few years older. I felt uncomfortable so eventually I called home and left and told my parents. The next Sunday we song Oh Happy Day and after church, Brenda's cousin introduced himself to my parents and said he is interested in me. And Mom and Dad said they will think about it because I was kinda young. I told Brenda's cousin that is nice seeing him in church and that I would like to see him more in church and maybe we can date in the future.
By Matthew Primous5 days ago in Journal
The Doctor and the Deputy
Lydia Dales was a humble woman. She would go to church and raised her children in the church. She worked hard for the things she wanted in life. She would not mind working two jobs or three jobs. She would work her way up in life. And she met John Dales in high school, he was good at numerous of sports and he was smart but he gave up his career to be a father to their children. And so he took the job as Deputy. The two had many children and they were good together. Lydia would make sure their children were feed, clothe, and educated while John made sure the family had a house and that the major bills be paid. And they stood together happy and sad, ups and downs for many decades. And Lydia had the two youngest children when John divorced her after over three decades of marriage because Lydia was no longer happy and John could not reconcile the marriage. But John was angry with Lydia and Lydia was angry with John. And they forgot the love that brought them together. John had some regrets that he did not spend enough time with his family and grieved that his children grew up fast. Lydia was angry that John let his family go and the same year she lost her nursing job that she had since early in the marriage. And Lydia was suffering because she had bills and no job. And Lydia was not getting much from the divorce, she realized that she had to start all over. So while she was looking for a job to feed her children and pay her bills while she was working as an assistant pharmacist. Ms. Bale from the employment office who was her job counselor met with her many times and helped her with a resume getting her that job. Ms. Bale called her and said that she received a call from a private university that Lydia can get a doctorate in nursing. Lydia stood in disbelief. And Scottie her baby boy pick up the mail and saw the invitation. And he asked his mother if he could go to the private college to get the doctorate for her. And she said he could. He went and could not attend but he reported back to his mother. Lydia told him that she just want her old job back and she didn't want anything else. But she asked if it inspired him and he said yes. And she told him to become a doctor. Eventually Lydia Dales who kept her name from her marriage with John Dales as a part of the divorce settlement, which Lydia was cheated, Lydia got back up. She begin exercising and looking like she did when she was younger, other men were interested in her but she was doing it for her health. Lydia at the end of her marriage suffered health issues that subsided after the marriage. John was sporadically checking up on Lydia but Lydia did not pay him much mind, she was doing it on her own. She was picking herself out of poverty again and again. Her family was impoverished but her parents worked their way out. Her and John worked their way out and they had many things in common. They liked many foods together, art, music, and concerts. John met Scottie in a public place and said Scottie I need someone to take care of me. I may get an illness. Will you take care of me? Scottie was unsure and said that he doesn't know how to. John said just think about it okay. Scottie left and said good bye Dad. And John said Good bye son. Lydia was angry about where Scottie been. And Scottie eventually said what happen. And Lydia said John is sick. He maybe playing it. Scottie I don't know if you should. You know I thought about going back to John. He was my first love and I do miss him. Years passed and Lydia was getting more and more. And eventually she received a call from their daughters that John is seriously sick. And Lydia came with Scottie and his sister to the hospital. Lydia said John you hurt me. The divorce and the end of my marriage. You left me poor. John said I am sorry Lydia. God forgive me. I am sorry for what I've done to you. Lydia cried and said Johnny are you dying? What is wrong? John said I am sick. I have severe pneumonia. Lydia cried with their children she said Johnny I will take care of you. I will come everyday to the hospital. I will make you dinners. John said I will pay you Lydia I know I know I have some. Lydia said no Johnny I have enough. God blessed me inspite of the end of our marriage and the divorce and even losing my job. I am doing it for God and the kids our kids. John said Lydia I always wanted to say this over and over again and again Will you marry me again? Lydia turned and smiled and turned Johnny I married you once that's good enough. And I wasn't with anyone else. And Lydia hugged and kiss John and they were back together, they were friends good friends forever.
By Matthew Primous5 days ago in Motivation