Silence is welcomed when beckoned, right? When we want to study, read for leisure, or do homework, we extend an invitation to the silence. But when no one reaches out, and it still shows up, what do we do?
2020 has got to be the weirdest year I've gone through. Most days this week (starting: 30th March) I've been thinking about how unbelievable this all is. It just doesn't seem possible that something like this is happening all around the world. Its starting to feel more and more like a bad dream, something this worldwide just can't be possible.
We've all seen the movie Inside Out, or at least heard of it. It is a beautiful work of art that depicts the turmoil and necessity of our emotions. Ask yourself, what is the emotion you most often feel and why? Now what is the emotion 99% of us want to feel as often as possible for as long as possible. HAPPINESS! I absolutely love smiling! In fact if you don't see me smiling then it more than likely means something is seriously wrong! However the art of smiling is able to quickly take away from those daunting feels and help bring your mindset back to a positive state and even assist with rationality.
It was a conscious decision I made one day. I just felt it, I knew I was ready to fully commit this time. Like a spiritual awakening or a calling, I was excited and felt dedicated to embark on a new journey, to transition, to shed. To grow into someone new. I wanted a challenge, a focus with no emotion attached - to win something. I wanted to be thinner. I was thin already, but not thin enough. I decided, I’m going to be thin. Really. Thin.
My Dad Andy, loved listening to Ian Dury, he used to drive me mental, when I was in my teens. He would start shuffling, little pigeon steps while singing Spasticus Articulus, while poking my arm, he still did it when I was in my forties, I miss him a lot. He loved all his songs, I play the CD in my van, it was my Dads copy. I blast Reasons to be Cheerful out, windows down. I can imagine I look like a Mid Life Crisis guy, In my Vauxhall Combo little white van.