Depression... What’s the first word that pops into your head when you hear that word? Sadness? Suicidal? Attention? For me, when I hear the word depression, I think of times that were supposed to be happy, numbness, and a fake smile. Depression is a disease that kills whether people want to believe that or not.
Over the past few years, cases of major depression among teens and young adults have climbed at a staggering rate. Although typically stigmatized as being non-severe and an excuse for the indolent, major depression is a serious mental disorder that affects your ability to think, focus, and rationalize. Depression also typically coexists with other mental illnesses, such as anxiety or mania, making the effects of depression and its treatment much more difficult to handle.
As a clinical counsellor I do not have the authority to prescribe people medications, and that is just fine by me. Having briefly been a client of big pharma as a teenager for depression and anxiety, I quickly realized that this type of intervention was not for me. Many clients I speak to these days have tried meds for a time and perhaps benefited from them in the beginning, but have been seeking more holistic and lasting solutions.
Keeping track of your own deadlines happens when you make a deadline list as I’m about to do for myself. To Do Lists constitute a brain dump of everything you need to get done while then breaking it down into smaller lists. To do lists only work if you have a schedule on an Excel file that tells you what you are doing with each two-hour block you give yourself, whether it is two hours or fifteen minutes. I give myself two hours. Time management is really easy and doesn’t involve looking at the clock every ten minutes. Time management is about using the greatest resource anybody has to your advantage. This huge resource is time.
I stand staring down at the person who I thought to be my friend, the only person who I believed I could trust, but they had tried to destroy me, tried to end my life, but now the shoe is on the other foot, because I am the one holding the gun.