1. The Devil I Know
The door slammed
Time and time again
Another silhouette melting
Into the distance
Disappearing from everything
Except my poetry
And still you stayed
Another hello
Another friendship
Another love
And still you stayed
Another goodbye
Another farewell
Another ending
And still you are here
Your arms wrapped around me
Not in an embrace but in confinement
I am alone
The only company I have
Is you
The only voice I hear
Is yours
The only words I listen to
Are your promises and lies
There is darkness
And then there is you
And you blend into one
Even in the daylight
I cry and scream and
Collapse on the ground
Pulled down from
The clouds
By you
And yet even now
When you have had your way
And I am weak and alone
Misunderstood and miserable
Still you stay
You are invisible but present
Quiet but loud
You are strong but
You make me weak
You are here and
You make me wish
I wasn't
I cannot see you
But you are more real
Than happiness or smiles
You are so close
I cannot escape you
Someone free me
Someone save me
I am imprisoned
And even surrounded by
Jail cells that look like
Your harsh grip
Society will not even
Speak your name
The one that suffocates me
Maybe I will say it
Maybe mentioning your name
Will one day free someone else
-Depression
***
2. Catching Shooting Stars
The sunlight is always golden
In the world I see
People are always smiling
And laughing and happy
In the world inside my head
In my world I can touch the clouds
And catch shooting stars
In the palms of my hands
And the moon tastes like candy
But when I open my eyes
I see tired looks and frowning faces
The world I live in
Is not the world
I love
-Maladaptive Daydreaming
***
3. Eye Contact
I'm scared to write about you
Because I'm terrified just to
Look you in the eye
Acknowledging you exist
Means admitting your effect on me
My demons don't even have
Eyes to look into and yet
They have no problem
Telling me how they've
Watched me do everything wrong
(If you can see me
Why can't i see you?)
At least you have names
(I just wish they weren't ones
People still laugh at)
-Anxiety, Depression
***
4. The Search for Oxygen
The letters and words
Don't come easily when
It's you lingering between
Each of the poem's lines
The ink stains my fingers
And you taint my mind
And how do I write when
My hands are shaking
From the way you make
My heartbeats race?
You look for non-existent dangers
And I search for oxygen and
You find what I should be afraid of
But I can't grasp anything that
Helps me not be
You are my cage
And people tell me
I am holding the key
But I swear I can't
Figure out how to
Fit it in the lock
-Anxiety
***
5. Dust and Debris and Devastation
"I will haunt you forever"
You whispered to me
When nobody else was
Scared enough to hear
I closed my eyes and
Wished you away but
Even when I couldn't
Hear your silent voices
I could feel your presence
In the form of closed airways
And the belief that the world
Was crashing down around me
In a cloud of dust and debris
And devastation
I wished for
Your disappearance
But all I got was
Tougher skin and
Less breakable bones
-Anxiety
***
6. Opposites
You’re asking me what I want for dinner. I’m asking you if the front door is really locked.
You’re saying sleep well and I’m saying that I won’t unless I complete a specific set of things before you tuck me in.
You’re trying not to lose your patience. I’m trying not to wash my hands again for the fifth time in the last minute.
You’re talking about a new movie. I’m trying to listen but struggling not to feel like germs are crawling across my skin like spiders and curses.
You’re reminiscing your childhood and I’m remembering the time I left the oven on for hours because for once I didn’t give in and check ten times throughout the day.
You’re falling asleep to peaceful dreams and I’m lying awake beside you, picturing detergent in my mind, attempting to wipe intrusive thoughts away like a faulty whiteboard eraser.
You’re telling me my fears are illogical, and my brain is screaming promises that something awful will happen if I don’t give in, give in, give in.
You’re complaining about taxes and the weather. I’m drowning in urges and impulses and the inability to resist them.
You’re checking your messages and I’m checking the car door and the stove and the tap.
You’re asking if I’m listening and I’m asking if you could ever really love someone like me.
(You swear you already do.)
-OCD
***
7. Bedsheets and Despair
My curtains are
Opened to the
Golden sunshine
But my eyes are
Tightly closed
My back turned
I swear I tried
To find happiness
In morning walks and
Spring breezes and
A block of chocolate
With an upbeat album
But no matter how long
I cling to the cliff face
It doesn't change the fact that
There's a noose around my neck
And it will steal my breath
Whenever I finally let go
There's a pile of outfits
I want to wear but instead
I'm clothed in bedsheets and despair
A wasted day is so close
To a wasted life and
One hopeless breath makes
The hopeful ones lose their meaning
The words can't
Cut the noose so
This is just the ending
Of another pointless poem
- Depression
***
8. Plants Growing Through Cracks in the Concrete
I know what his hold can feel like as he clings to you, calling himself Depression but looking more like the devil himself. But when the smoke of him is suffocating you and his hand is wrapped around your throat, please remember the days he was just a distant figure around the bend.
Please remember the days you cradled a book in your hands and the rain poured down against your window but never made it past the glass. Please remember how good fresh air tastes and how laughter feels like happiness.
Don't forget the love you found in between the bad days, like plants growing through cracks in the concrete. Don't forget how much gentler happiness's hold is and how it always comes back eventually.
-Hope
***
Note: The storm doesn't last forever. Neither will the pain.
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