You’re Not

There's a voice in me right now,

And it's telling me that I'm not good enough.

I try to shrug it off and say

That I'm just in a limbo– an in-between state.

I try to shrug it off and think

This can't be right, but I can't shake the feeling

That I'm losing my grip,

My feet are slipping,

The gravel, the dirt, it's all too loose

Climbing up this mountain.

It feels like I'm the only one

Stagnant in this place.

I’m trying, trying, so damn hard

To move... to progress... to grow...

But I’m helpless right now.

I don’t know where I am, or anything about

This strange, unique environment.

I’m navigating these woods as well as I can

But all I seem to do is get myself more

— lost.

—confused.

—desperate.

—scared.

The only thing a person wants in life

Is to make someone proud.

If not themselves then their family,

Or the closest thing to it.

There are so many things that I’m trying

To balance right now,

Sometimes I feel like I’m failing at it all,

Even when I’m not.

And with failing at it all,

Here I am letting everyone I love down,

Myself included.

But as true as our condition is human,

It is also imperfect.

Nothing we do will have perfectly dotted i’s

Or have each t crossed.

But even if not perfectly, at least these things are done.

You may feel lost, but rest assured

You’re not. You’re human.

All you can do is your best.