With Disease
A Poem About Living with an Autoimmune Disorder
I.
Living with this disease
is like living beneath a storm cloud
constantly collecting energy
constantly growing, looming, expanding over seas
becoming super saturated with anguish
with hands clasped for a single wish
for there to be rain, but no thunder.
II.
Living with this depression
is like dwelling in another dimension
in another time frame
everyone is moving forward towards the future
while all I experience is regression
of mental perception
one day I’m fine, and the next it’s a lie,
but when I’m racing towards the winner’s seat,
I’m always in a tie
with defeat.
III.
Living with an autoimmune disease is
wearing a shroud of death that no one else can see
but you
in the mirror, there it is, draped
over slouched shoulders,
caressing your cheek
and ever-present reminder that you are a black sheep
You try to move forward—like anyone would
but the shroud grows heavier,
a wet sheet that dampens the ground where you stood.
Reminding you that a single step took hours of sweat.
Reminding you that your body is your nemesis,
that there is no real ‘me.’
Because if the enemy of my enemy is my friend,
and my mind is my own worst enemy,
then all that leaves me with is spirit.
Unfortunately, I’m in no mood for out-of-body
experiences
when every day has me hanging from fences
by the collar of that shroud.
About the Creator
Valerie Taylor
Freelance Writer | World Traveler | Dancer | Fitness Nerd
Check out my website: https://www.thetravelingvalkyrie.com
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