Why Am I Back
"The city Smells like mistakes"
Imagine seeing the exit ramp and immediately your anxiety takes over as to welcome you back to your birthright
when you see your memorable street sign
It feels like the whole city is crying of the sins you tried leaving behind.
But some stuff you can't leave behind
Some stuff packs itself up in bags and carries itself with you until you deal with it
A car passing by and you ask if it's his even though you don't remember seeing him drive it
you're head overwhelmed with conversations explaining yourself but hold no real explanation of why you're back other than you felt like you didn't have any other way
your heart remembers being pushed into corners of the apartment buildings standing stronger than you last seen them but it still doesn't take away your urge to speed through red stop signs because flight still seems like the best option.
your sins are engraved in the faces of strangers at a restaurant and the words "how have you been" sound more oppressive than uplifting
The urge to have a night out is followed by not wanting to drive home at night unless you really have to
These city lights use to light up like a child's Christmas fantasy
Now all she sees
is why she shouldn't be
back here.
About the Creator
K. Waterss
Poetry has been my life for as long as I can remember. It's the only other thing besides my daughter that makes sense to me most days.
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