Who Will I Lose Next?

times really done changed

my circle got smaller and smaller

i can’t believe how many people i lost over the years

sometimes, i be thinking

who will i lose next?

times really done changed

i was a bratty teenager

now, i’m a man with a passion

living his life’s dream, and that’s to tell stories about his life

as i kept discovering my style

i still lost people along the way

don’t wanna get too specific, ain’t

trying to let my past eat me alive again

i’m trying to leave that where it belongs

i wish i could make up for lost time, but

once you use it up, it’s gone forever

i wish i could have saved my dad

from overdosing that morning in New York

i wish i could have saved Tina from cirrhosis

i wish i could have repaired Chelsey’s heart

after i found out what her ex did to her

now we not even speaking

haven’t done so in over a year

i wish i could bring back my great-grandmother

i wish i could have prevented my grandmother from going missing

i wish i could have gotten my momma to put down the bottle and the cigarette

i wish i could have saved my sister’s first-born child

i wish i could have saved everyone who dropped dead in these Newark streets

i wish i could have prevented XXXTentacion from getting killed

i wish i could have been there for Peep, Miller, and Fredo

i wish i could have found out who shot Pac and Biggie

i wish i could have prevented Ye from losing his goddamn mind

this got me thinking like…

who will i lose next?