Honestly, i don’t think i want to even write this poem.
Because as soon as I begin, I will fall for you all over again.
It’s ironic how much i loved you when i didn’t love myself.
I feel like all the words, all the phrases, everything you said,
Was all a sick joke.
Loving you felt good, and when i believed you loved me too, i felt okay.
But now i portray that i am okay,
Leaving spaces in the lines i say,
Hoping you can read between them.
Loving you was like breathing after drowning for your whole life,
Loving you was like living up to be what I wanted.
Loved back.
But now, since you left, i can’t seem to even think,
I get up and write about you,
I isolate myself from everyone hoping they won’t see me when I let my guard down.
I don’t even let my dogs in my room, because they can tell when i’m sad.
And i’m always sad.
I can’t eat,
I can’t sleep,
I can’t even begin to type what i want to say to you on the phone.
And if i do, i delete it all, careful not to press send because i would just die even more inside if you ever saw what i felt.
I won’t lie...i miss you with every inch of my heart.
And it hurts.
c.b.
About the Creator
Cameron Bounds
I was born in idaho. Growing up I was abused in many ways. And now that I approach adulthood, I struggle every day with PTSD and relationships. Therefore write it all out based on my experience. I would like to change lives with my poetry
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