What It Feels Like to Let Go...

It took me a while to find the courage to write this.

All I seemed to have in me when facing the thought that you are gone forever, was blank pages

-a lot of them.

But I came to a point where the pain of clinging on to the memories, was taking over the very present that was actually occurring around me.

I was neglecting those beautiful aspects of life that once kindled such mighty soul and will for life.

I used to urge myself to stay awake through the night, so that I may witness upon the red luminescent flames which brushed across the magnificent skies.

Canvases to my famished soul and hungry heart.

Missing you took all that away from me.

I was broken, fragile and so very weak.

Keeping my eyes awake to the commitment my soul made oath to

upon the horizon, had become near too damn impossible.

Promises I made to myself all began to fade away…

From myself.

All that was left was but a hollow shell which lacked the necessity that is self-love.

Elapsed turbulent fragmented ripples, that sought to realign across echoes and whispers of the universe.

So, you see.

Once you come to a realisation of all the things you have to let go of to keep that person

-was it all worth it?

Did that person’s value equate to all these beautiful promises?

The answer is of course no.

The truth of the matter is,

They would have remained at hand and dormant beside your soul, to witness your beautiful growth in waiting.

Similar to that in essence of trees who patiently await in silence for the growth and grand reveal, behind those enveloped blossom capsules that they guard so honourably.

Or how each singular grain of sand awaits in silent slumber patiently, to be carried and salvaged against the mundane station and repetition at mouth of sea.

Have you forgotton how the sunlit skies still wait for you, their promise remains now more than ever?

Silent hymns seeking you out, every day, every hour and every second.

The earth still spins in perfect order and constitution, so that you may conquer the mighty untraveled roads that beckon and conspire you home.

They never gave up on you.

But alas the person you ‘miss’ ultimately did.

So how do I let go you ask?

-Remember why you are here.

Your purpose.

Seek remission of the oaths you have taken:

Live,

-in embrace and pursuit to nurture your soul. For that is home.

Nomadic, wild and free-with no bounds or limitations to what you reap.

Seek,

- the whole universe and laugh by its side wholeheartedly, for you are a child of she. You bore onto mother earth with origins that replicate her. You was never a stranger.

And grow,

Feed your roots and hunger for knowledge of the unknown, for the very roar that echos within you shall crumble even the strongest of foundations that seek you out. Your ancestors made it so. You are destiny in momentum. The very tale of the beginning unto thy end.

So you must forgive yourself,

forsake the pages you have lived in turn of a new one.

Appeal in harmony with the hands of the divine and whispers of the universe,

realign your bearings and navigate accordingly.

You are free now,

A master of yourself

-Always.