What I deserve

Dont believe it isn’t true

That great things can happen to you

I say this laying in my bed

Trying to get these words to stick in my head

Why can’t this be something good for me?

Why can’t I accept what’s in front of me?

I fear for myself as I move forward

Yet I still hope for the best

Have you ever had doubt about your worth

Thinking you deserve less that dirt?

Can you bring yourself to think again

That life has learned you a difficult lesson?

Not to unpack and live in the pain

But to learn, stand up, grow, and gain

It’s hard for me to see the same

It’s most difficult when I remember the pain

Remember the hurt I wish never to have again

Seeing a monster turn from a best friend

Easy enough said than done

I know that I’m not the only one

The doubt that grows deep inside

Insecurities I try to hide

Hinder me in every step

While going forward I have to prep

Prep my mind and prep my heart

Telling myself not to fall apart

Again I say this in my head

Good things can happen

It’s not the end.