To the Guy I Thought was the One

Maybe it was my fault it didn’t work out.

Maybe I expected too much.

I might have been unreasonable.

I guess I could’ve been controlling.

Perhaps I was insecure.

I suppose I didn’t really trust you.

It’s possible I romanticized you.

I guess I asked you to be someone you’re not.

I probably cared too much about people’s opinions.

I was wrapped up in my own anxieties.

Maybe it was my fault it didn’t work out.

Maybe I expected too much

When I thought you’d be excited to be with me after seven years of pining.

I might have been unreasonable

To expect that you would treat me with the same respect you did when I was unattainable to you.
I guess I could’ve been controlling

When I told you you couldn’t sleep with other people.

Perhaps I was insecure

When you continued to ask if you could.

I suppose I didn’t trust you

When you said you “probably” wouldn’t want others in your bed if we were able to share it more frequently.

It’s possible I romanticized you

As the person who would always recognize my worth.

I guess I asked you to be someone you’re not

When I wanted you to be the same person who helped me recognize worth in myself when I couldn’t see it.

I probably cared too much about people’s opinions

When I let you make me feel small.

I was wrapped up in my own anxieties

When I was too busy worrying that I wouldn’t live up to your expectations to notice that you didn’t live up to mine.

Maybe it was my fault it didn’t work out.

I’m sorry I didn’t wake up sooner.