To My Old Best Friends
To the assassins disguised as school girls
To the assassins disguised as school girls
To my old best friends
You did the absolute fucking definition of kicking me when i was down
I remember standing on that balcony thinking that if i jumped nobody would care
That was because of you
The worst thing possible happened to me at least i thought
And as i cried on the bed filled with pain
You sat in silence or walked out onto that balcony
the one where i considered ending my life
And you would laugh as you told others about me on the phone
Where was your humanity?
Where was our friendship?
I thought six years meant something
And i mean it did to me i guess
You were the first people to break my heart
Who would’ve thought
Your best friends are meant to help you through heartbreak
Not be the ones to cause it
I still can see the coldness in your eyes as i showed you what he did to me
The bruises that didn’t make you shudder with disgust
And even now i think of you
I wonder why you decided to be so cruel
Sometimes i try to answer why you did what you did
But a part of me thinks you don’t even know the reason why
All i needed was support and instead you gave me isolation
I wonder if you’ll ever see this
If you’ll realise these words are about you
If you realise the pain you caused me
If you feel any remorse
You showed me what a friend should not be
You taught me about the cruelness in people
I was being buried alive
With the hands i thought would help me out
Throwing dirt on my casket
Your laughter as my funeral song
With this i try to let you go
Although regardless of how you treated me
I still love you and hope you are doing well
I still think about you and what you are doing with your lives
I forgive you for what you did to me
But i can’t forget all those tears
I can’t forget how alone you made me feel
Your actions have followed me
With each friendship i make holding them at arms length
Even the friendships i already had
I took a step back
Because if anything you taught me
That no matter how long or how close a friend
For any reason or no reason at all
They could switch off their love for you
Or never have it in the first place
About the Creator
Cassidy Kirk
I am a young freelance journalist who also enjoys creative writing as you can see from my work.
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