This Dark Brain
A poem fuelled by anxiety
Thoughts spin and catch,
falling into a whirlwind melting pot of what-ifs.
Multiplying and spreading
faster than she can catch a glimpse.
It fills the corners of her brain,
latching onto vital functions
and infecting them with their panic.
Paralysis creeps in.
Stealthily at first,
hidden behind furtive, repetitive movements
that gain no ground.
Then she stops.
Stops entirely.
Stares in horror.
Sees nothing
as thoughts pop and explode
on every nerve ending in her brain,
overwhelming every sense in her body
until it throbs.
Her face flushes and sweats
whilst her fingers shrink,
icy and hard.
Her heart beats and beats and beats.
She hears it in her ears.
She feels it rattle her core.
It follows the thoughts blindly.
Even as her thinking brain pleads with her:
they make no sense.
But the brain underneath
cannot hear.
Will not listen.
Will not stop.
About the Creator
Alicia Brunskill
Alicia writes about her experiences with anxiety and depression, teaching and learning languages, education and cats. She also shares her poetry and fiction from time to time.
Find her on Twitter: @aliciabrunskill
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