Things love has taught me
Vulnerability is not a crime
I've always been stubborn
no hill was too small to die on
and accepting an apology always felt like betraying myself because the damage was already done
but that left me sad and isolated
because I held people so tightly to their words the first time
and I was even more strict on myself
I too was not allowed to change my mind
Doomed to a life of stagnation
Wearing a persona far outgrown
Hurting myself and those I loved with my rigidity
those edges I sharpened daily to keep lines clear
So one day I decided to leave
to reinvent myself in a place no one knew me
And I did, and it made me happy
until I outgrew her too
and the pain of shoving myself inside a mold once again outgrown
it became too much, so I left again
to rediscover who I was becoming
to do so alone so I could emerge a whole new woman with lines defined
But as time passed I realized that I am in a constant state of metamorphosis
So I kept to myself more and more
because growth is messy
growth is painful
but its also magical and beautiful
And love taught me how good it feels to share that
love taught me how incredible it feels to participate in growth with another
To melt down the harsh lines between you and I
to marinate in us soup
not caring who is w and who is e
just that we are we
Love has taught me that there is just as much comfort in being held as you break down as there is vulnerability and fear
and that there is just as much pleasure in allowing someone to help you piece yourself back together in a new way as there is confusion and embarrassment
Love has taught me so many things and I am sure it will teach me many more
About the Creator
Melancholic Mama
I no longer know who I am, but I do know what I am
A mother and a wife
A woman lost in the sea of life
I don't know if I will ever be a who again, or if I am doomed to live the rest of my days as a mere what
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