My mother has always told me
To work hard and accomplish my dreams
Get a job and keep up my grades
We can never understand her feelings about working every day
But is it really us who can’t understand
She’s been through a lot, yes
Working 7 days a week to support us
Stressed to no belief
Yes
We get that, if anything it’s a fact
We strive every day to make her proud
Proud of the kids she worked her ass off for
We see everything
How rugged she is
Both mentally, physically, and emotionally
All of our achievements, good grades, and our jobs
All to make up for all of her pain
But is right for us to be treated like we don’t
Being yelled at for getting a B- or just a simple B
Being told I’m not applying myself enough
Being told that I’m not responsible enough
I have a job I go to college
Juggling going to school and going to my job
My grades and money
The two things I was told to do
All of a sudden isn’t good enough!
Mama can’t you see it isn’t me that can’t see
But you who can’t see the real me
All of my pain, my tears
The emotional damage the darkness in my soul
Mama can’t you see I can’t breath
Every day is challenging both physically and mentally
Holding my head up every day
Afraid of draining in my dreams
Being Swallowed up by your hurtful words
Spite back out into a bottomless sea
Mama can’t you see I can’t breath
I wake up every day ready for school come back home late
Having you breathe down my neck about where I’ve been
Why was I there
And I can no longer do that
I walked to the world being shot at with these responsibilities
Coming home drenched in blood
Wounds I try so hard to hide
As my mother, I want to see her smile
My endless effort doesn’t succeed
Only receiving a hand full of salt
Placing all over my wounds and expected to man up
Mama can’t you see I can’t breath
Days I take to my own expense
Only viewed as immaturity
It’s getting harder and harder every day
To keep up a good face
My lungs being drenched out of every little oxygen molecule
Mama why can’t you see I can’t breath
Listening to the same speech over and over again
Like a broken record in my head
I can never understand the pain and sorrow you have suffered
Because I’m only a child
Mama can you see
Every time you say that to me
My soul rips in half
And thrown into that bottomless sea
Can it be that you just hate me
Using all your hardships against me
Like some endless gun machine
Mama, I can’t breath
The real me has been lost at sea
Never knowing how I could get you to see
I couldn’t breath
You never really could understand the real me
Unfortunately
I can no longer breath
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