The Point in my Life

I’m at a point in my life where I feel like no matter what I do, it won’t change me.

Everyone says you change every day, now don’t get me wrong I agree, but to an extent.

Because I also think that your mindset won’t change if you don’t know what to do.

And that’s where I am right now.

I have absolutely no idea what to do. I know I want to go to college and get married and be one

of those families where everyone loves them but I’ll question why I’m not like other

families.

But I feel lost.

Lost on how to get there.

Lost on what to do along the way.

What do I need to learn to be that person?

That person that everyone loves but won’t admit they admire.

That person who changes others because they decided to keep going.

That person who isn’t alone anymore.

But I don’t know how to get there.

I don’t know what to do.

You see, I don’t know how to become that person because I don’t know who I am now. So I

don’t know where I’m starting or how far I am from the finish.

I don’t know how to do something for myself.

Or more of it’s that I’m scared to do something for myself. (Scared of getting hurt again)

But now I’m in a place where the only option is to do something for me.

So I’m at the point of my life where I’m stuck, by fear, on how to do something for me.