I don’t know how to describe this moment
I just know that it hit me. You never admired me.
I scared you, I challenged you
You didn’t think you could meet the challenge?
You were not adoring of my spirit, you were jealous
You never marveled at my lust, you were envious!
When it suited you to be kind, your words were encouraging
You twisted your bitterness into a sweet cup of wine
And I swallowed eagerly
My vulnerable self the most naked for you to see
Your bearded mask hiding a scared boy
Wanting to wear the shoes of a man.
I may never know
Why the cigarette smoke on your lips intoxicated me
Wanting to wear the lingering taste around my tongue
A noose choking me
I may never know why I never saw the vast sea in your shallow eyes
Or why I tread those pool waters carefully
When I knew my body was created to plunge into the darkest caves of the ocean floor.
From my benevolent youth as a muse
I seal the well of creativity that over the years, I let so many drink
Only to find myself thirsty for the words I helped create
Simply existing as the cure for an old man’s loneliness
About the Creator
Genesis Gonzalez
I know a lot about a lot of things, but I'm never one to claim to be an expert. Aspiring writer currently a butcher.
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