Teaspoons

Don’t leave

Stay

Just close enough

But not too close

You repeat my words back to me

With a look of questioning in your eyes

Asking me to let you in

Asking how much you really know about me

Wondering why I am shutting you out

You like to pull me in

Wrap your limps around me and ground me with your love

All that love

I reject

Feed it to me in teaspoons

Tell me that you love me every other day

As you repeat my words back to me

I wonder why I had first uttered them

They take on a whole new life on your lips

They question me even though you didn’t ask a question

So next time you come around

You kiss me on the cheek

Giving me just enough room to breathe

Just close enough

But not too close

I wonder if you have a book with everything I say

And read it carefully before approaching me

A novel you are hoping I will sign one day

As you repeat my words back to me

I sound like a broken record

The thought of hurting you

Sends my heart into a sombre fury

I’m angry at my mystery

I can’t find the key to my own door

But I know that one day I will

And when I do, you won’t need it

Because the gate will be unlocked, flung open

With a throne inside prepared for you to finally sit

You have been standing outside too long.