Is it safe to drive and cry at the same time?
Would a cop stop and ask me to pull over if they see me?
These thoughts run through my head, adding insult to injury
It’s like I can’t ever give myself a break
Even when I’m already down
I’m crying because I’m stopping myself from evolving
Opportunity keeps knocking on my door and I somehow find a new way to lock it
I leave and drive away and then immediately regret it
I could still turn back, right? Wrong, my mascara is running
My eyes are swollen and clearly wet
The saddest thing is that no one is making me cry
It is simply my mind that makes me this sad
I know deep inside me that the opportunities appear because I need them
Yet, somehow, I convince myself that I will mess it up.
I never show up, I never try not even once, yet I am convinced, I will fail
So, I cry, cry in my car, cry in my home
Cry for the past, present and my fearful future if I continue this path
All day long I torture myself
Mentally beating myself up and down for my cowardice
“You’re afraid of life! You’re afraid of the basic life skills a person needs! Why?!”
On and on I go in my head
Outside, no one can tell
People just think maybe I’m reserved or shy
I let them think this because I know I’ll never change
About the Creator
Lily
Writer, Teacher Assistant, creator and believer in the law of attraction
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