Stupid Things

This jealousy it shouldn’t proceed yet somehow it always gets the best of me,

A feeling that overtakes me

While he screams as if he hates me,

What to do,

how did I get here ???

I realize I wasn’t thinking clear-

Now here we are, he’s still screaming out at me while I sit and feel my heart bleed

“You’re so stupid don’t deny”

I tell myself to keep from cry,

See he’s not in the wrong

I would be mad too if someone always hit me with this sad song,

still not getting a clue!

Over and over it’s on reply

The sense of being judge and running away-

Comparing, comparing to things not in existence,

This monster of mine found a way to be consistent,

It always comes out at any glimpse of doubt,

It make me scream and pout!

My monster he likes to disrupt others

To keep me from having any lovers-

Trying to keep me miserable while the reaper awaits

Always trying to throw me the bait!

Until I meditate that's when he dissolves,

That warm oh sweet warm embrace hugs me and resolves all

I continuing to evolve-