If you would have told a 5-year-old me
That she’d be dealing with anxiety.
She probably would’ve furrowed
Her brows intensely.
If you would have told a 10-year-old me
That she’d be dealing with depression,
She probably would’ve ignored you
Rolling her eyes at the your hesitation.
If you would have told a 15-year-old me
That she’d be feeling the static soon,
She would’ve laughed at thought
Because her mood was over the moon.
But 20-year-old me, she had a feeling.
Something was changing
Because the static was growing.
At 21 she felt the bugs crawling under her
Skin, feet tapping, hands fidgeting.
At 22 she was crying.
At everything.
Everything.
At 23 she felt her heart racing
All the time.
At 24, the fear and confusion burned
In her throat. What was happening to her?
By 25, she learned that maybe she wasn’t crazy.
Though a chemical imbalance in the brain
Can make you feel insane.
The doc gave her some medicine,
to help balance out what her body was missing.
After her family kept insisting
After all the panic attacks
After all the dreamless sleeps.
And after all the joyous lack.
She finally had her answer.
Anxiety and depression.
A constant static buzzing within her.
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