stained glass heart

broken in tiny pieces

discovering what is next?

delusional derangement tied together with a bow

my insanity looks simple next to the chaos that encapsulates me

struggling to breathe

waiting for an answer

i choose me

i may be wise but i’ve slipped into the comfort of numbers

it’s safe here

more is better

cutting you out to save myself

i can’t breathe

my heart

on a key chain gifted to you from me

please be careful

intimacy is a two way street but i’m scared for you to see

my love is not a clear window

obstructed views from the outside in

glass painted with colors that tell you how i doing

the walls of my mind tell you stories of who i am

a work of art carefully crafted by the one who created me

but i choose who gets to see this masterpiece

i fall fast and forgive quickly

my love is fragile

a heart easily broken when pressure is applied

but do not mistaken my fragility for weakness

senses heightened

i see you for who you are

i’m a mosaic made at multi faceted colors and schemes

a collection of emotions and feelings

my stained glass heart tells a story but only once i’ve let down the walls i’ve built up tall and sturdy

maybe for a second i’ll let you see

the love i hold

the tenderness i carry

take my hand

and see what see

feel what i feel

as i cross over into what is intimacy

i have a stained glass heart

tucked deep inside my chest

these days i choose to wear it around my neck

on display

can you see me?