Sorry

it's not that I think I am better off without you,

it's that I know you are better off without me.

I'm not looking out for myself here,

you could probably do me some good.

I'm looking out for you.

please, don't try to fix me,

you're not the glue that's going to suddenly hold me together.

don't patronize me,

and pretend to know me.

you don't know me,

you only know the parts I've chosen to share.

I'm reserved for nothing or no one.

I'm not a challenge or hard to get,

I'm anxious and insecure.

I'm too much for you to handle,

don't say that's why god gave you two hands.

as if the collateral damage of who I am

could be grasped onto and held.

plus that's just cliché.

I'm not even trying to be poetic anymore,

seriously leave me alone.

I overthink to the point of paralysis.

I don't want to feel as if someone is trying to fix me

or trying to make me happy.

I'm not your damaged good.

I confide in myself,

I'm lonely

but I'm not going to waste my time on people

who don't understand me at all.

There is no one out there for me,

so I live alone in my head.