"So sad, so sad
You're always just so sad
Good God
*deep sigh*
Who am I,
to be so proud,
to say these things
I think out loud
I should be sad,
be sad,
be sad right beside you
But the longer I sit sad with you
the harder it becomes
to find my way out
of the hell your all about
So how long,
how long,
how long must I sit and stay
In wake
In silence
Watching you waste away
I'm supposed to never leave
To stand with you through it all
But you refuse
to come out, come out
come out and be happy
Your comfort with your sorrow
Your solace in your pain
Is keeping you standing
in your self produced rain
As long as you continue
to be stubborn standing still
I cannot compete
with your strong will
I just want to be free,
be free,
be free to be me
But I'm torn
I don't want to be
another excuse for you
to use, to continue
to keep wallowing
in the long gone you
So worn, so worn,
so worn am I
Long before you,
I will surely die."
"I have skeletons in my closet
Things I've never said
Things I've already done
That I’ll never tell anyone
I've truly almost lost it
By the life I've chose to lead
But my secrets are my secrets
until I have no blood left to bleed
If I've broke anyone's heart
or ripped their life apart
by the things I've done out of greed
I can only say
I've been selfish
A little unruly
This I know truly
So my closets where my things will stay
There will be no other way
They will not pop their heads out
and waggle a bony finger
In my closet is where they must linger
Linger there and be repressed
and never consciously addressed
These skeletons in my closet
they will pile up and tower over
but still I'll bury them lower and lower
Till one day,
near my death I suppose
I will let myself be fully exposed
bones and all."
"So many things you’ve done in anger
Have caused rippled pain
to even the innocent stranger
Multiplying unhappy
Like a virus
Infectious
Quite the spread to see
Filling everyone's insides
With what you’re trying to hide
Aren’t you exhausted
Your mind never turning off
Running marathon after marathon
To keep your virus moving along
Then you lie awake in your bed
Thoughts drifting in-n-out your head
Never sleeping
Never dreaming
Constantly thinking
Of the
Coulda
Woulda
Shoulda
Hasn't, maybe
Needs to be
You’d love it to be
But can it be?
It has to be
Laughably
Said…
Thus
Creating rivers of tears
Not oceans of smiles
You flat-line them all
With sadness for miles
Delivering jaded big pictures
Encouraging close-minded
tunnel vision scriptures
While inducing selective hearing
Then disappearing
to reappear when you want
Never making it clean and clear
Thriving on confusion and fear
At best you beat around the bush
Pick and choose through selective say
Wanting all to feel a certain way
Is any of it really working?
Apparently
Because we've become accepting
Of the sadness that ripples from your
deception."
"Sniff, sniff
Blow, blow
All hell,
what do you know?
This is my life
This is how I choose to live it
If you're going to stand by me
You have to let me be
Waa, waa!
Boo, hoo!
I guess what you say is true
but I don't give up
I won't give in
This is how I chose to win
I know I may do wrong
But this is how I continue on
to stay alive
What it takes for me to survive
It takes all I've got
to know what I'm doing,
know what I'm saying
But I make my own decisions
I take what comes with them
I guess I’m sick
I make excuses
And never clean up
All my messes
But…
This is my life
This is how I choose to live it
If you're going to stand by me
You have to let me be."
"There is a place inside of me
I never knew existed
A place where goodbye lives
In this place, innate inside me,
I never knew of what it consisted
This place where goodbye lives
This place was my ignorance,
dormant until despair
terribly inconsistent
I was foolish to try to resist it
This place inside of me,
This place where goodbye lives
In this place my throat may close,
tears may stream past my nose,
time may stop,
my world may drop,
my mind may bail,
communication may fail
of conditions that may prevail
becoming momentarily persistent
But...
I'm insistent
It'll be OK
It will pass
For in this place where goodbye lives
"Goodbye"
Knows its purpose, its task
And I accept it, at last."
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Mia Lynn
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