Smiling but Drowning

Wish there was someone I could pour my thoughts to,

When my eyes get filled with sorrow memories.

Maybe someone to tell me they won’t leave and never leave.

Because they all have left.

Selfish

I showed them

My soul

My Spirit

My pain

My tears.

But they left like I knew they would.

I'm trying not to lose myself in this world of a maze.

God it’s so hard when you’re driven insane by pain.

I'm smiling

But my thoughts are scratching my brain screaming for them to be heard.

Red pours from my thoughts

I try block

But sometimes I end up swaying, flowing in my thoughts flowing so far

I'm halfway drowning.

So lifeless sometimes that I enjoy the knowledge that I’m slowly killing myself.

My thoughts are killing me so soft and slow.

I'm trapped

I'm smiling but they can’t see I'm drowning.