Six Year Believer
A story of love rediscovered after moving home during COVID-19
I never believed in us--
We were two kids stranded,
Loving each other because there was no one else to love
In that small town that made nothing
worth keeping anymore.
When you drove up to my house and knocked on the door,
When I jumped into your car and down your throat,
I knew then it was because there were
No other lips to kiss in the early snow
That stranded us on the side of the road
Until we dug your car out with red, aching hands.
I never believed in us--
Not in the moment you parted my arms
Folded protectively over my bare chest,
Not when we moved so slowly together,
Building a rhythm that would catch fire.
When you were the first person
To look at me.
No one ever looked at me
Like that.
And,
No one really has
since.
I never believed in us--
Not when you put on my clothes
To make me laugh,
Not when you’d talk and listen into
The finite hours of endless nights,
Or when you told me I was beautiful,
Or when you cushioned the blows
That I didn’t want to hear
And you didn’t want to tell me.
Not when I broke your heart first
Before you could break mine.
Jokes on me.
Because you broke mine back,
Twice in the row.
The first time
I believed in something,
You were one year and three hundred miles
From that little town with nothing worth keeping,
(Not even me)
And I visited your grandmother anyway.
She couldn't remember my name, but I believed
Her when she said it was nice to see me.
How could I doubt a woman
So pure of heart and clear of mind?
The second time
I believed in something,
You were three years and 9,000 miles
From that little town with the only things
In your life left that were worth keeping,
And I ran into your mother at the pizza shop.
I was with someone new, but I believed
Her when she said she missed me.
How could I doubt a woman
Who helped raise me?
The third time
I believed in something,
You were four years and three feet away from me
When lightning struck.
I couldn’t breathe, looking at your face.
I didn’t want to,
But I slid down the bar and closed the gap in one step.
You were there with that beautiful girl that I loved so much,
but I believed
You when you said you wanted to see me again.
How could I doubt you
When I had already cut you?
The last time
I believed in something,
You were 6 years and pressed up against my skin,
As if trying to climb inside it.
Six years since
I never believed in us--
And I didn’t,
Not all that time,
Not until just now.
About the Creator
Maggie Moss
Writer.
Student.
Non-profiteer.
LGBTQ+.
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