Shifting Perspective

I couldn't put anyone else above you

You made me both fear and love you

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Felt myself falling, but I still couldn't stop

Somehow still felt like I was somewhere at the top

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Your heart beat like I was to believe

It was real love that I saw you bleed

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You flipped the script, and I couldn't follow

Looked right through me, like I was nothing but hollow

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Was any of it real, or was it just in my head?

You seemed to love me more connected by a bed

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You made me feel some of happy; you made me feel some of sad

Tried to please you and pretend it felt good acting a little bad

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You cheered me on, singing praise, your plaything I became

Your smile deepened, grew sinister, signaling the start of a game

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I adored you, worshipped at your feet, but oh

It seems you wanted to keep it just a little bit discreet, uh oh

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Once where it had seemed we in some way completed each other

Was really just us cheating, defeating, and depleting each other

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Yes, I am struggling; it can't be denied

But words you no longer get to say bring peace of mind

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I would rather be free and keep it minimal

Than to have it all and feel like a criminal

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Bittersweet memories, oh, why does my heart still ache?

When I know there's only ONE part of it all that wasn't a mistake

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Starting to finally recognize a stronger version of myself in the mirror

Without your voice in my head, I can see a little bit clearer

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Emotional withdrawals and writing it down is working you out of my system

No promise of pleasure to distract and pacify me just because you don't want to listen

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All the sleepless and haunted nights became a lesson learned

Keep playing the fool and dancing with fire, and continue to get burned