The shadows they accumulate within
A twisted, tormented rattle that crawls underneath your skin
Every heart broken
Every tear that has escaped down your cheek
And every tear you held back to hide your grief
The shadows linger, like twisted branches
And they grow, intertwined with the goodness of your soul
The monsters that whisper dread in your ear
Insecurity, doubt, fear
They take hold of you
Your happiness turns to worry
As fast the smile took over your face the sorrow took over your body
And you are now in a completely different place
You feel heavy, all your dreams tainted in congealed blood
The blood of your hope slowly dying
All the hurt you thought you'd got over
Slowly envelops you and eats away at all you thought was certain
Into an uncertain feeling of impending doom
The light that was burning so bright within
In seconds is now dim
The monsters claw at your feet, they pull you down
Everyone around you sees happiness and smiles
And you thought you were finally rid of the monsters
You thought you were free
But in one lonely moment
One instance
All the happiness over months that you had found
Is now under a deep dark cloud
The thunder rumbles, drowning out you attempts to be positive
Every positive glimmer of hope you try to conjure up
Is swallowed up by the demons in your soul
You feel alone once more
And doubt the words from those you adore
You see deceit in honesty
Trickery in any kind gestures
And you contemplate the same dark fate every loving moment brought you
Every loving word from those that hurt you
Every time you told yourself, surely this is it
And even though this time you feel it to be different
The love feels true
Every little sign of hesitation, uncertainty, any fear the other person may harbor
Someone that has been just as hurt as you thus treads with caution
Becomes a terribly bad omen
And you feel yourself doomed
Questioning if you should jump this ship you fear might sink
As it heads into deeper water that you fear might finally drown you
You try to fight it, fight the voices, fight the claws that pull at your ankles
But every positive thought you conjure, you hear yourself say a negative back
The daemons of doubt plant in your head using your voice
Trying to deceive you into thinking that this is your intuition
Trying to lead you into a self fulfilling prophecy
You can not shake these daemons, these shadows lurking within you
For they are a part of you that has been neglected for so long, they've rotted
A putrid side of yourself, that in it's attempt to save you, only destroys you further
Crippling any happiness you finally grasp
By overshadowing it in your souls darkest layers of pain
About the Creator
Sheara Kerry
A daydreamer, mind wondering, thoughts pondering, like the ondulation in the ocean. I doodled, and wrote, pages with a thousand notes. My dreams like sci-fi movies, where the lines of reality and imagination blurr into imPOSSIBLE things.
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