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Saturated in Gray

what is the truth?

By Heather HublerPublished 15 days ago Updated 15 days ago 2 min read
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This song always speaks differently to me whenever I take a listen, the meaning evolving and sometimes circling back around. It's the inspiration for this poem in some ways. I hope you take a listen.

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If I'm being honest,

I'm not sure what that means anymore.

Truthful,

sincere,

fair?

Is it lying if I tell myself I can do it?

Is it the truth if I say that I cannot?

Am I full of falsehoods

bleeding from my tongue

as I say that,

I'm fine?

I'm fine means I don't want to be

ungrateful.

I'm trying to look on the

brightside.

Hoping to be a source of

joy for someone else

while I drown.

If I'm being honest,

I'm not sure what that means anymore.

What's the truth of the matter?

How much do white lies

weigh on the scale of sin?

I say tomorrow is going to be

a new day,

full of promise,

new beginnings.

Morning dawns–

a blank canvas,

but mine already feels

covered in half-truths,

muddied by the hurt that sits on

my chest,

squeezes my heart.

Grief for loved ones lost,

for time spent poorly,

for anger that ruled,

for sadness that remains,

for feeling like an afterthought,

for stress that I can't help,

for stress that I can.

Am I being honest if

all I show myself is the bad though?

I'm not lying if I say

this day is wonderful,

even though pain is right under the surface.

I speak untruth saying there is

no good,

no joy.

The truth is,

I'm not being honest.

And I'm not lying.

I don't think it

can be black and white.

I think sometimes

it's all shades of gray.

Like me.

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  • Dhawy Febrianti7 days ago

    This masterpiece speaks to me in a personal way! Thanks for writing such a beautiful poem! God bless you!

  • Alfiya13 days ago

    Wonderful and relatable. Gonna put that song on my playlist!

  • Gosh this all hit so hard 💜 I know you're not an afterthought for me 🤗 I really loved this part: Hoping to be a source of joy for someone else while I drown. Lots of love 💗

  • Dean F. Hardy14 days ago

    Came full circle in lovely way. Felt a lot of faded grief in here. Thanks for sharing Heather.

  • Babs Iverson14 days ago

    Wonderful, absolutely wonderful!!!💕💖

  • Misty Rae14 days ago

    Beautifully raw and honest. I love the vulnerability in this.

  • Aphotic14 days ago

    Your poetry always speaks to my soul. Another great work and the song you included fit perfectly.

  • This is such a moving, beautiful poem. I think you've outdone yourself!! LOVE THIS! ❤️

  • Keila Aartila14 days ago

    Raw in its honesty - love the vulnerability. Sorry - my laptop won't let me watch the video, though. It's not my laptop - it's my dumb WiFi and data caps. But I love the poem!

  • Wonderful poem, and a great song to share with it.

  • Mariann Carroll15 days ago

    Love the song , it’s not easy to be positive all the time especially how the world is going and what we here in the news. Beautiful poem , it honestly refreshing . 👍

  • That song punched me hard in the gut! I love songs like this because it says all the things we don't say or we can't say. I loved this line from your poem: How much do white lies weigh on the scale of sin? Your poem was soooooo relatable!

  • Holly Pheni15 days ago

    Heather, wow. This is a lovely, raw and real description of the internal wrestling in which we all engage.

  • Gosh this was so relatable and just hit heart head on. And then this line just … too REAL “I'm fine means I don't want to be ungrateful.”

  • Gina C.15 days ago

    This is amazing. Somehow it's incredibly complex yet so beautifully, simply, honestly said. This will definitely be a Top Story. :)

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  • Daniel Jeyaraman15 days ago

    Amen to this, we all have our shades of grey in us. Beautifully written, Heather. ❤

  • Subhi Najar15 days ago

    I love the power of words!

  • Moe Radosevich15 days ago

    circle the bases, it’s a home run, no need to slide in home, you touched many, tres bien 😀

  • Cathy holmes15 days ago

    Speechless. Bravo!!!

  • Powerful poem and song!💕

  • Another amazing poem!

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