Reflection

I look in the mirror and wonder

Will they see through me today?

Will they notice that it is all a front,

All a façade, all a complete lie?

I stare at the reflection

Examine my composed mouth

My confident stare

I have it all together

That is what everyone says

That is what everyone has always said

I wonder if today they will realize

That inside I am crumbling

I wonder if they will see

That my hands are shaking

Will they notice my calm breathing

Is preventing a panic attack?

Or will I convince them once again

That I am in control?

Nothing fazes me

Nothing upsets me

I can take on the world

I leave the mirror, fingers crossed

Hoping that for one more day

They won’t all see the truth

The scared little girl

Who would rather hide in a corner

Than walk out her front door