Red Crayon
An extended metaphor poem CW: self-harm
There's a red crayon in her hand
and she's coloring
Each new line is a way for her to let go
The crayon is her portal to a world where she's in control
Sometimes the crayon makes her cry
Sometimes the other kids try to take it away
She's scared she won't have it when she needs it
so she carries it in her back pocket
It's there when she has no-one to turn to
It's there when no-one cares
When her mother yells she can color a beautiful picture with it
Sometimes it gets a little messy and she has to cover it up
No-one likes the color,
it's not in style.
When a boy cheats on her she can write his name and smile
Her magical red crayon can clear her head or fill it,
whichever she wishes
If people see her they make her put it down
because they don't understand its power
Sometimes it gets a little out of control
and someone else has to wipe it off
It doesn't always fade
but that's ok
She doesn't mind the stains,
just the way other people look at them.
She meets someone and they have a red crayon too
finally, someone who understands
they begin to hold hands
When she's crying she calls them
Sometimes forgetting the red crayon in her pocket
But it begs her to remember its existence
It fights her to stay in her hand
sometimes it wins.
They threw their red crayon away
She calls them now every day
and the red crayon cries
Because she's not coloring as many pictures
One night she's packing her bags and it's there
sitting on her desk
whispering wonderful memories
And her skin rings with yearning
But then she realizes
She doesn't need the magic red crayon anymore
and the memories were never as wonderful as they seemed
in fact, they were bleak
It never fixed anything
It only made her feel all right
it was an evil red crayon
holding her captive for years
dependent on the way it made her feel.
Her temporary savior became her worst enemy
How did it take her so long to see?
No matter how tempting it may be
She can't run to the red crayon anymore.
She turns away, feeling free.
She walks out the room,
and the red crayon,
no,
it was never a red crayon
not an innocent child's plaything
it left deep scars
the blade
stays on the desk.
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