Perhaps

Perhaps, now I know

what the aches of the heart are

and how easy

it is to control them.

I had told myself the same story over the course of my life.

Perhaps now is the time

to stop

believing the lie.

It’s true.

When faced with uncertainty and doubt

One fades comepletely.

We accept the things we don’t know as

true

And forget what is

false.

Perhaps I have been lying.

I don’t know.

I have thrown so many “perhapses” in there

That Lord knows what I know anymore,

Let alone what I think

Let alone

What I feel.

Or what I pretend to.