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Oldest Daughter

by Harley 4 months ago in sad poetry
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A poem -Harley Pennington

Oldest Daughter
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“You’re so mature of your age”

I hear it from everyone I come across as if it was something to be proud of

I wonder how much birth order shaped me

Did being born first shape my whole personality?

Did it force me to be a caretaker even if it wasnt my instinct?

I wonder if I was born last

would I not feel responsible for everyone‘s feelings?

would I be able to let my guard down?

would I be able to have a childhood?

“You’re so mature for your age”

Im just a kid, wishing I had the chance to play that role for longer

wishing I didnt have to grow up so fast

jealousy haunts me as I watch my younger siblings living worry free

making the most of their youth

no guilt will haunt them the day they leave for college

guilt indudges in me the day I pack for college

knowing im the glue

feeling responsible for my younger siblings

feeling guilty for leaving them

I need to put myself first

but how can I when

im so used to fixing and nurturing everyone

but myself.

sad poetry

About the author

Harley

Hi, im 18 years old currently in college working towards my bachelors degree in English, inspiring to become an author. :)

http://linktr.ee/Harley.p

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