Often
Thoughts While Reading "Kafka on the Shore", by Haruki Murakami
I often die, in pain, in agony.
I often die, quietly,
remembering pieces of me that have been lost for far too long.
I often die alone, in the middle of nowhere.
I often die in company, loudly, gasping for air.
I rarely live.
I rarely breathe in peace.
I rarely feel like the echoes inside are my own voice telling me to hold on.
I rarely live in movement.
I rarely move on my own,
and when I do, it is with remorse.
Soaked in melancholy, I lay myself to dry.
I barely dry before it is time and so I leave home damp, fusty.
I rarely breathe in peace,
because I often smell of regret
and oh so many things that sit still within me.
I rarely let myself live because I often die inside;
literally and figuratively.
I have seen myself die so many deaths, it is hard to see the life staring at me from the mirror.
I hyperventilate when I choke,
I flinch when I burn,
I hold my hand when I feel it grab a knife
and flail my arms when I feel my body fall.
I often see me die a gruesome death.
But rarely does my body stay still in response.
About the Creator
Juan Lli Pedraza
Hi!
I'm a Venezuelan poet living in Florida. I am a poet for hire on the weekends which means I type poems for strangers on my typewriter about whatever topic they want. Hope you enjoy.
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