Of Nature & Man
Poems for Every Season
Try to penetrate with our limited means the secrets of nature and you will find that, behind all the discernible concatenations, there remains something subtle, intangible and inexplicable. Veneration for this force [that is] beyond anything we can comprehend is my religion. To that extent, I am, in point of fact, religious.
Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.
-Albert Einstein
Spring
A Memory
It’s eighty degrees outside.
Pink and purple flowers
fall from dogwood trees,
like snowflakes from the sky.
Dogwood trees
perch on jagged rocks
that jut out at different lengths,
driving away from the lake
that’s been sitting there for years.
Makes me think of that time--
When we went out
with our grandparents
to pick honeysuckles.
We would drink every god-
forbidden ounce of sugar
from each tiny flower.
Grandpa would search for
the right type of rocks
to border up his garden.
Grandma would say something
like, “it sure is hot out here.”
and we would all agree.
Then we would go
inside our old house--
the one with the frigid air
that blew at constant speed.
My wet shirt clung to me
and we’d eat refreshments.
I’d always peer out the window
while I ate, to look at the smeared,
water-stained reflection.
Shower
Silence.
I hear the trees brush,
the wind rush--
With the sound of a million chariots,
The rain hits the ground, the grass, our yard.
“Passion.” She says,
“What is passion?”
Is it like the rain that grazes over miles of land?
Or the thunder, selectively chasing after the light.
The fan turns. It picks up speed.
The blades spin loose on their hinges.
They form the illusion of a unified circle
like the world on its tilted axis.
A breeze
pushes the rain toward us.
The chill thrusts vitality inside my being
as the water brings new life to the ground.
“Smell the rain?”
“No,” I smell the mud.
The root, soils to our foundation
wet, awakened, renewed.
We sit in silence. I stare at her
as she looks through the screen,
to the outside. I expect more,
but it came as it fades now.
It left with one pound of thunder,
the diminishing clops of hooves
and the sun, beaming down on the kissed leaves
letting each tree glisten like the stars they are,
you are, we are.
Waterfall
In the spring,
all the temperatures of Earth seem to harmonize with each other
I sit on a boulder, immersed in its warmth and let its firm back prop me.
One foot away from the falls and its wind wraps around my entire body, spiking
the hairs of my arms. Pixels and holograms is all he could compare it to but I looked at the falls once more and with its spit dampening my face, couldn’t simplify
the beast as much as he could. He called it
White noise, receding and contracting.
I called it ashes. Cold, ashes
that rained down and
dissipated.
I turned to hear your thoughts
but you were busy placing wrinkles into Mother Nature’s pond.
I hesitated before I went to you and watched as you drowned a stick
it arched its back as you drug it across the water, against the current. I smiled,
you were making more ripples in the process. I climbed down from my boulder and, when I went to you, you called it fire. I looked into your brown eyes
with uncertainty. “A fire?” You looked back to the water.
And the arching stick to show me something more
as the rings of water continued
their unceasing
pattern.
Chernobyl
It is bland, we are alone.
There is a stillness in the day,
much worse than the night,
when we close our eyes to sleep.
This time, our eyes are open
and we still see no one,
we still see nothing but
the bland and the empty.
I am of the infected;
a disease grows inside of me
like the steel mixed with dirt,
or grass pierced through cracks
of tarmac. They set aside a place
for us. But not to live, they want
us to die. We want to die.
Or are we already?
The doorknobs to our houses
are cold. The mattresses and
dolls left in buildings, they
have not been touched;
neither have we.
But I remember
how it feels--
being touched.
Summer
Dawn
In the morning, with the dew covering all the tiny strands of green,
I sit mesmerized at the persistence of grass. It pushes up through the thick,
brown soil and spreads its thin roots throughout to make sure that
mankind would struggle with weeding it out of their gardens. Our
hands are no match to their cords that stretch arms length, becoming
stronger and longer as time passes. Like an umbilical cord, I have to think
fast, snap scissors, and yank the tiny green substance from Mother Earth.
The rain comes in and quenches its thirst, the slight relief rain brings
tells the grass to keep on striving and it does. At least until winter
and then it strives again in spring. No, winter does not stop grass for long.
Grass fills the empty spaces between my toes. To kids, it would tickle
but for me, it bends; not breaking, in a relaxed sort of way that tells me
it’s all right. It’ll be just fine under the sun, under the shade, under our feet,
it’s still growing strong. Even when the whole rest of the world turns
off their lights, leaving it to grow under the moon, alone in the dark.
The dew will wake us up in the morning and the grass keeps growing.
I.
I wake to find my love waiting for me
And as I peer out toward him,
I hear my door creak, to find her
She looks at me with tiresome eyes.
The planks of wood crack,
As our feet make their way down
Down into the soft seashore
Down upon the blank, silk sand.
II.
By the sea’s side,
Our feet disturb the sand.
As we walk, she pulls me in
And clutches me like a coin,
My value being her constant.
She shivers a bit.
I pull away to run to my love
As he splashes over me, I look
Toward her. She doesn’t understand.
I see her writing this down into
The script of her life
And go to her as my clothes feed
The soft sand with a drink.
We keep on walking.
JAZZ
A tone resonates across our yard. It’s the neighbor playing her trumpet
pulling off beats like those aren’t easy, as you mention how many hours
until the viewing. Then we’ll have to move on, because she’s gone.
And the glissando of the trumpet pours out something like lemonade.
I couldn’t believe it when I found out, she was 26; 4 years older than me.
So the trumpet must be calling out to her on our behalf, singing sweet blues
from Alabama. I told you I didn’t want to hear about it, I guess it’s just easier
to keep it out of my head. I’m all about keeping it quiet or leaving it alone,
Instead of letting pain infect my heart. Trills and thrills and then we die,
leaving people behind as if they were nothing to us, and maybe they weren’t.
They’ll cry a little bit, believe me they all do, but then they all turn around and
walk away, leaving her beneath them in a grave. Soon, there’ll be none of us
left. We’ll all move on, like she did. There will be nothing left other than a
memory of a trumpet that called out jazz in the middle of July’s heat.
Beach
The seaweed tangles in between my toes
and lingers there until I shake it off.
“It got in my way,” I say to you,
“It always gets in my way, disturbing me.”
You look at me and we pause in the middle
of the sand, in the center of the beach,
with flashlights giving us an occasional spotlight
your eyes shine at me with midnight blue
I dive into them, splitting their undeniable
waves, undecipherable pattern, and quickly
look away. The ocean hisses louder.
You take my face and bring it toward your own.
“How can you say that? Do I get in your way?”
“No,” I can’t say anything else. Every other
word is locked inside by tiny mouth,
pushed behind my tongue and clenching teeth.
Let’s never talk about this again,
Let’s pretend I never said those words.
Those are my thoughts, but they’re just thoughts.
We never can go backwards, have a redo.
“We’re supposed to be together with everything,
We’re supposed to support each other with everything.”
“But we’re different people,” maybe too different.
We stand, looking at the shadow of a beach.
As children run around, picking up
Empty bottles, shells, and crabs, I collect,
my thoughts of our children--- your children,
your house, your yard, your job, me sitting up
late nights; I sit and look at the phone.
The clock and the plate of food wrapped
in tin foil was my company that night, every night.
I discard all those memories because
I know we can never go backwards.
But tonight, there’s no moving forward,
no ‘pressing onward’ or ‘moving past this.’
Water pulls itself inward, backward,
away from you, and soon will splatter all
over us. Are you ready? I'm not.
Master of None
Clouded by humanity, broken thoughts
Precede empty words, tedious and full
Oh heed the subordinate art. I write.
Read my words and weep like the copious
Rain drops; you are the rain, fall down and run.
As a dream, these words would fail to smolder.
No, I do not merely dream, I respond.
I look past the storm’s wrath and find focus
On one drop dangling on one blade of grass.
I reveal its reality to all
I revel for its existence with all
I give relevance to all that exists.
I instate truth and within it a lie.
A poet has no home, we are the light
All that is are simple clouds, rain, mud, dark
Nothing but a response to something greater
Feel my wrath as I enlightened the world
Does thunder roll without lightning’s strike?
Screaming Meemies
(Previously published in The View From Here, Issue 25)
my stomach is the hollow air
of an elevator shaft
pushed and squeezed
tightly and confined
moaning a constant
tone
the sound of tension--
my mind is the bell
ringing
the opening of doors
letting any
and everybody
dictate the future
a future that could fall
with gravity weighing
too much to fight against
a future that may rise
with just the right
touch
Pool
My parents told me to stay in our yard
but I saw my neighbor standing alone.
I went to him, to see what he was doing.
My nose turned into Rudolph’s, my throat
was burning too. He was beside his pool,
I went to him for company. I guessed he
was cleaning it because he had a pole in
his hand. At any rate, I went up to him
and said something. In a flash, somehow
I ended up in the pool, cracking ice
on the way down. Every inch of me stung,
I could only breathe-in water and quickly
choked. I felt I was in mid-air, going so fast and
flailing about, not being able to break
through the surface of the murky green
water and the stiff icy frame. When I
came to, I was shaking as the water was evaporating
and laid inside my neighbor’s house. Dripping.
All I could think of was how much
trouble I would be in when I got home.
I attempted to sneak into our house,
trying to find dry clothes. But my Mother
was soon at my doorway, looking at me
with hurt and curious eyes. She asked
why I didn’t tell her. I couldn’t answer,
drowning in excuses that didn’t add up.
Dinner
The hibachi
hisses at me
like a rain shower
slapping pavement.
Knives slice,
splitting one
object
into many.
Master chef
speaks Japanese,
as he cuts into
the herbs.
He’s making
a volcano
that will
soon erupt.
After that
he’ll throw shrimp
at one of us.
It’ll be me.
Meat burns
as the flames rise.
I flinch and sweat beads
down my forehead.
All of this for food...
Fall
Halloween
Leaves fall as if they’re burnt by the sun
The warmth of their colors will all too soon fade
As I step, their dried skeletons crunch under me
Thin air scolds my nose as it enters my lungs
I release.
I was once an Indian galloping down streets
chanting trick or treat to ghosts and white people
I believed in spirits and jumped when people booed
Covers and fires hid me from the cold.
I knew how it felt to be a pumpkin,
I wobbled around in orange, and smiled
I couldn’t stop smiling as my father picked me up
And said I was the perfect size.
Now I gut their insides out and eat their seeds
I carve what I want to see into them
I am as white as a ghost,
I am hollow and still.
Widow
(Rondeau Redoublé)
She saw nothing but her future,
Joys of rest she could not perceive,
She’d no time for aimless hover,
Border after border, she weaved.
With every arm and leg she heaved
Entrancing, silver-lined texture
Which had strong holds most misconceived.
She saw nothing but her future!
She’d no want for times of leisure,
She thought of only satin weave.
Gave no time for games or pleasure,
Joys of rest she could not perceive.
She felt the silk she interweaved.
Soft, smooth, string unlike another
Her tender lines, to prey, deceived!
She’d no time for aimless hover.
Made for vital, venom captures
For all the prey she could conceive,
Her motif drawn like white suture
Border after border, she weaved.
But when her design was complete,
Her masterpiece made to allure,
She looked to see what she achieved---
In looking back, she felt unsure
She saw nothing.
Fire Flies
Little sparks of Fire
never seemed so hard to catch.
Like the flame from my lighter,
the blazing ashes tapped into your tray.
The child squints slightly,
aiming his eyes to catch them...
Fire, glowing Fire, like our house
so many years ago.
Against that cold, October sky
they held me captive from that house of mine
my screaming, my shouting,
my torment-- It’s gone!
The band around your finger,
the one that Mitus touched,
welded, melted in the Fire,
the child doesn’t know your name.
Your name is burned into my head.
your touch, scorched into the forefront of my mind.
Those nights outside were made for us,
until the night of the unexpected Fire.
Now the glowing sparks of Fire,
light up each summer night
I hear the joyous screams of children,
as Fire shines in the grip of their pale hands.
Epilepsy
Static interfered with the words you said and broke your voice
up more than your tightened throat. But what I did understand
is that I needed to be home that second, perhaps moments before
one thing I noticed on my way home is that hazard lights are dim
compared to my phone, constantly being lit by missed calls. And
the drivers were oblivious to your tears, my fears, and our needs.
They were slow like the ambulance pulling out of the driveway when
I arrived home. The lights of the sirens were flashing red, but they
were inaudible, enough to keep me cautious. Firemen were gathered
around the front yard like trees, silhouetted and still. One approached
me, trying to tell me everything was fine but if everything was fine,
there would be no need for me to be there, all I heard was white noise.
I was tense, my feet were heavier than elephants filled with lead. I
dashed into the room and you told me you were going to the hospital
to see him. I wanted to argue, to tell you he’s my twin brother,
but he was your lover at the time.
One thing they don’t tell you about is the scene of the incident.
When everyone leaves, the fear and panic stays. The room
remains cold, icy enough to make every hair on your arms
stand up, constantly replaying the event. Blood is still on
paper towel and the carpet. A Coke can lay down on the table,
spilling out its insides. Pillows are left on the floor, the ones they
moved his head on to after he blacked out. The room is uncertain,
I look at my phone but for the first time, it’s still and no one tells me
what I am most worried about, I have to wait the night or however
long it takes for someone to tell me how he is, what is happening.
Another thing they can’t possibly describe is your unpredictable
reaction. Some, like me, are unnervingly calm as they soaked up
all the Coke and blood off the table and carpet. Unable to cry as
they vacuum, move the pillows, wash the dishes, mop the floor.
Some like me will sleep. They will sleep as if their sleep should
last forever. And then when they can’t sleep any more they might
just very well break through their static reaction and cry. Every
time they feel no one sees them, they’ll cry. It doesn’t have to be for
any particular reason to cry. They’ll just feel their eyes weigh down
with pain and their insides cave and they’ll cry for days or however
long it takes. You and my brother sat calmly on the couch that I
cleaned, two days later. It was over and I drove back to my apartment,
away from him, having to live my life and trust that it would never
happen again. And when it did, I cried once more. My life never really
did return to the static that it used to be.
Winter
Moment-um
It’s like this--
The gun was shaking.
His hand, one loosely gripped it
and held it up beside his head.
One propped his entire body up,
holding onto the kitchen table
so that he wouldn’t faint.
And he knew the kids weren’t home,
the sound would be drowned
by the passing train’s howl
so his neighbors wouldn’t know.
Steel wheels pulled the long,
heavy, cargo carrier by.
Occasionally he would hear
the pressure placed between
the tracks and the cycling circles.
It scraped, buzzed, whistled, hissed,
and blew.
Family Tree
Single file line
I wonder if he knew them
Cars people lines and verse
Tied to them by blood
Nameless faces all know me
Forced myself to smile
I stand in a group
Making jokes about my age
Death has no humor
Tight room suffocates
With several people watching,
I lean against the wall.
My Father walks in
I tell him I like his tie
He calls sister ‘Bitch’
Grandma forgets years
She asks how her dad died
My Grandfather died
Mom hops between rooms
I try to help her calm down
I am no rabbit
I play middleman
Problems all stem from people
Ice in cups dangle
I held a white rose
Dropped my rose in Grandpa’s grave
Stared at walls of dirt
We sit on plastic
Grandma sits on a cushion
My shoes pierced the ground
The guard has 21 guns
The tent shaded us from sun
Another leaf falls
Snow Globe
The days, the months, the years
it seems have passed me by so quickly.
Now I’m left holding remnants
of a glass figurine I admired once.
If dreams didn’t disappear from reality,
and love never lost a battle,
if hope was all we needed
to have faith and faith
to have what we’ve always needed;
if tears were always of joy
and glass didn’t break on hardwood floors,
if flowers failed to wilt
and wrinkles diminished into nothing,
then age and change
and the bitter sweet endings
would mean nothing more.
What shapes the shadows on the wall,
shapes the future that we hold.
The world shrinks in size,
music fades in a jewelry box,
the floors and talk change undetectably.
Paper may burn fast or slow,
but it still will go,
and nothing but ash will remain.
The art of childhood
for a child, is seamless.
The child doesn’t realize
that when she sits in her room,
wishing she could be older,
she’ll sit in a much different house later,
wishing she could be younger.
The light burns on the wick of a candle
and in a wink of an eye, it’s all gone.
About the Creator
Sarah Faith Ethridge
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