Been waking up depressed everyday for the past month.
And everyday for the past month I've wanted to die.
But really, do I?
I'm so unhappy, I don't know why
But I know when I look up there is blue in the sky
A blue that much matches mine.
In this state you get grey clouds and dark skies
Lately its been bright
But something doesn't feel right.
Every day for the past month I've been dragging 2 tons weights at my feet
I don't want to do anything
Yet I yearn to do everything.
A simple hike
Or fly a kite.
(I don't know how to fly kites.)
Today I am glad the sun is shining again,
Today I am glad it will be 76 degrees
Today I am sad
I wonder when I'll start to shine again
Lately I've been shining with a dim light
And then I do nothing but cry.
I do not have the energy to even crack a smile