Thanks, I will!
I skip meals, I don't wash my hair for days at a time, I don't lotion my body knowing my skin is extra sensitive come winter time. I smile when I feel like crying a river and I criticize each and everything I do.
I don't take care of me. I don't see a point. But sometimes I let myself sink a little too deep and when I realize I do I come back to the surface again. I never know for how long, but I know I do. I take advantage.
Its like this annoying waiting game and most days its very intense then by night I just want to sleep. Even that's a hard task to do.
Are you okay?
Yes, I am thanks!
I bottle up my emotions as if my soul is empty as if they have no matter being here -because that's how it feels any who.- I cry myself to sleep when I can't sleep at all and I tear myself to bits and pieces.
I'm not even sure what I am supposed to do anymore. I help myself as much as I possibly can, but most of the time I need a hand.
Though lately it seems like I've been needing a life jacket.