To hate me would mean I mean something
That’s what you said, I remember the sting
I remember your words, so carefully plotted
So carefully placed in the order allotted
You seemed to mull over every thought
So it would seem, but apparently not
I know it’s a lie, I know it’s a lie
I know you could never look me in the eye
Will I ever forgive the way you behave?
Can’t I forget those words that you gave?
“Your words like knives cutting at my flesh
I turn them into mumbles that kiss and caress”
Foreshadow, foreshadow, forever will I see
Forever will I see that sheer mockery of me
Forever will I writhe in my bath of memories
Will I ever wriggle free of tormenting inquiries?
I don’t see, I don’t hear, I beg you don’t explain
I plead you don’t describe to me and make me go insane
I can’t imagine, I can’t think, if ever there were a thought
An excruciatingly awful thing, to think I could have sought
Such imagery that makes me sick, I vomit in my sheets
I squirm around and feel these sounds, my fast-paced heart beats
I hope I’m deaf, I hope I’m blind, I hope I won’t ever feel
These wounds, these scars, these cuts and bruises don’t ever seem to heal
My face will fade and wash down the drain
And I’ll look to the mirror to see the bloody remains
My bones shone through all the tissue and gore
And I scrape it away still yearning for more
These characters they’ve grown so stale, please just go away
I close my eyes and open them to see it’s a new day
A new poem to be written, and it’s still just as bleak
These new people, this new place, yet I’m still just as weak
They’ll look at me today, then tomorrow look away
And then I’ll close my eyes and see there will be no new day
About the Creator
Ivy Rozen
Writer and poet with published articles, email campaigning experience, teaching experience, and a completed poetry residency with Free Verse, where I finished my first book of poems, Runcation, on sale now at www.IvanaWrites.com
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