Never Had Me

Day breaks again.

I glow from within,

Like a luminescent star

Replaces my heart.

Alone, but in peace.

Not taunted by shadows

Of a love that never will be,

And fate that's never had me.

.

When day breaks again,

I'll retreat further in,

Finding myself

Even closer to truth.

I was alone beside you,

Sacrificing my worth

For a love that never will be,

And a man who's never had me.

.

Light flows within

Like gold in my veins

Slicing straight through

This misguided hope,

Tearing callused hands

From a torch of steel,

With your hands gone,

They won't carry alone.

.

You learned to play

My aching heart strings,

The sweet, little sound

Of innocent bliss.

I must be paranoid.

How could I believe

That an innocent would harm me?

Do I think you'd really hurt me?

.

My relief

Seeded rage.

I had to hurt.

Had to FEEL.

To know what I lost.

How much you loved,

How much you had me,

And what I was missing.

.

In your heart was sickened

And bitter contempt.

Maybe right from the start!

I shudder at the thought.

You showed what I'm missing,

Now I'm basking in the light

As it's boundless like the sea,

Filling holes you carved in me.