Mother is just a word written down in my journal
But here and now I share it with the world
This is the beginning of my journey, I was just a little girl
I craved her love I needed her to understand
Hers was not the only truth
I showed her my wounds , told her of my stolen youth
Still I was to blame she pushed me aside
She chose him and other men for years
Sitting alone, no one heard my pain or saw my tears
Still I felt brave and set a goal , Who needed her - mother was just a word
Content that I would forever be alone
Leaving that life behind searching for something exciting and unkown
Strength and resilience picked me up
Still in the back of my mind
I try to understand why
Someone called mother could not be kind
No matter the accomplishment , no matter the success
I could never get her love or praise
She hopes and prays that I will fail
And I know now she will never change her ways
She blames me for her life failings , and am I supposed to apologize
I feel her negativity reaching out for me, wanting to control me
I scream out "I refuse to be like her!"
Yet still I hear her voice telling me I will never be happy
But now that I am aware of this abusive family cycle
I need to stand tall and truly believe
That I am not what she says
Only then will self love be something I achieve
About the Creator
Rebecca K
As a lover of arts and the the truth I enjoy writing. It allows me to express myself while sharing life lessons, precious moments and even the unspeakable moments. I encourage feedback on my posts so feel free to speak your mind. Thank you
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