Missing from me

I waited all day,

With the hopes youd see me

But how can you.?

When your eyes never looked my way.

I cling to my pieces tightly,

Knowing they see my edges fraying.

Alone in silence

But thats not what im hearing.

So loud, they must be screaming.

The voices in my head,

Filling me with self doubt.

At your side, my body hums..

Im alive, vying for your affection.

Yet all i get are your crumbs.

If i hold back what i want to say,

Maybe this time you will stay.

Over and over the mantra plays..

Every night i lay awake,

Going myover every possible mistake.

And wonder how i might change.

To be what you want i have to contort.

Leaving my mind deranged and warped.

Is it you, or is it me?

Do i question or do i believe .

When you go it's a dreadful feeling.

Alone, im at the point if breaking.

Telling my self were not pretending.

I gave you my heart,

Its yours for the taking.

So you tore it apart.

Leaving me broken.

Wheres the end,

When did it begin

plays over in my head

For days on end.

With you i bared

Looking to a futire

You promised we’d share

Now you act as if you never cared.

We push, we try

You lie, inside i die.

When you touch me

Can you feel my broken

And these cries i hide,

Go off, like explosions deep inside.

Gave all i have to give,

and still youre nowhere near

But with out you i dont want to live

As you kiss me in my sleep,

Is it not clear to see

how our cycle always repeats.

Days with out you are never complete

Why can we never be?

When you're forever my missing piece..