menstruated

This release felt personal,

It’s quite all over the place.

In my face I notice a beauty that was always there and can’t ever be replaced.

In my existence I notice that my pain has caused my resistance ...

Resistance in self that’s suppose to lead to wealth but mine leads to death. I can’t fathom that my upbringing was a lie ... it was meant to teach me to deny, not a satan but myself!

I was taught to deny myself but those teachers wasn’t denying themselves.

I was taught to not speak a certain way while those who taught spoke in their secret ways.

I was taught to value my body so that it may slave for a job to provide for self and not allow anyone else to do it for me.

I was taught the sanctuary was the way and the only way although I was apart of a group that had no limit on belief other than the father.

I was brought here, but I’m an orphan.

Maybe I have her to blame.. she gave me right back to Life covering me in spirits of abandonment— she gave me back to the universe as a place of endearment and put me in more danger to live with