Sometimes things come to an end
Without explanation.
Sometimes you wake up
And feel alive for the first time
In a while.
But it never lasts for long,
Your mind wonders off
To those moments
Where you wanted to say more
But instead just dozed off
Into “what if” thoughts.
Other times you remember
The moments that brought you joy,
The moments you opened the door
And heard the bell ring.
“Hey Marie,” still rings in your head
You can still hear his voice
And see his hand wave at you.
His voice always seemed get rid
Of any anxiety you had.
Sometimes you still hear his laugh
As he would lean back
And try to keep his balance.
Other times you wait around
For a text or a call
To affirm he’s still around.
That’s when you ask yourself,
“What were you thinking
In that moment?”
“What was your last thought?”
And as you sit here
Writing this poem
It pains you to know
That it came to this.
That this is the reality now,
The reality that you never
Thought would ever come.
Even though you spend days
Trying to ignore it,
It still scratches the back of your mind.
“Never change yourself for anyone”
Still rings in ears,
As he continue to express
How unique you were.
That moment never seemed
To go away,
You keep thinking
What if I could have just said
“Thank you,
Thank you, Kyle”?
And it plays in your head
Day in and day out,
You think about the last time
You looked into his eyes
And told him goodbye
“I’ll see you in two weeks!”
You think what if I could have
Just hugged him
And held him tight
Before it was his time to go?
What if…?
About the Creator
Mawou
My name is Mawou and I am a 22 years old writer. I am just writing my experiences and sharing my thoughts with whoever listens.
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