Loveless Marriage

i am trapped in a loveless marriage, these four walls hold me in, my brain in holy matrimony with my scarred and rotting skin.

i am trapped inside my head with no hopes of getting out, my brain reciting repetitions that i vomit from my mouth.

i am trapped in an empty room with only echoes and disease, my brain tells me “slit your wrists” and for the quiet i’ll appease,

i am trapped in a loveless marriage, with a body i don’t know, i face it in the mirror, i bare the burden of its woes,

i am trapped in a steel cage locked up, maybe god holds the key, but i do not know him well, and he will not let me free,

i am trapped like a song bird, but they say the caged bird sings, but this caged bird stopped singing and is rather bothered by the sting,

i am trapped in your holy bible, i am the verses that you read, i am nothing, i am something, i am what you will believe,

i am trapped in a loveless marriage, four walls rot my skin, bruises blue and black and yellow, smiling face and body thin,

i am trapped in an endless cycle, take me home i’m feeling sour, under water in my bathtub for countless lonely hours,

i am trapped with a thing inside me, a thing inside me,

it’s me inside me,

i am trapped in a loveless marriage, with myself.