I don’t know what to make of this
For I’ve not tasted Satan’s kiss
You nihilistic hedonist
I thought I got you but I missed
x
So what is true, and where am I
And how did you fill up my sky
With thoughts and oughts of you, and why
Do I feel blue when I stop my
x
Endless process of boxing up
Perhaps excess spills out my cup
I must confess, I am a mess
I’m dying here but I digress
x
The cliff is sheer and much too near
Nothing is as it does appear
My musings are not more than mere
Attempts I make to so cohere
x
And match my map to its terrain
But now I do confound my brain
What I yet mean in meaning’s name
Is that our loves are not the same
x
For loyalty in love you see
Has always seemed, to me, to be
Necessity, or destiny
For none are free when love takes thee
x
Compelling them to hate the thought
Of battles lost but never fought
What is the cost to court the court
To plead for what you’ve always sought
x
To lead me through your weary mind
In desperate hopes that I will find
That in this act we are in kind
As if one copes completely blind
x
I learnt the ropes before my dear
And I know how we end up here
These tired old tropes that trace a tear
Are only now becoming clear
x
For it was just as I did fear
You left without saying goodbye
How did we get from there to here
And which of us did truly try
x
The narrative inside your head
In which you see yourself as sly
Is nothing more than what I’ve said
And in my books fiction don’t fly
x
A story spun from silver tongue
Intoxicant with which you ply
Young souls whose song your soul has sung
Enchanting is your set of I
x
Decanting desperate despair
Expressed as but a bitter sigh
I’m breathing in this toxic air
Stuck in a rut of what and why
x
I thought our ought was to be fair
In lovely life and love yet lost
Yet now it seems like you don’t care
And all I feel from you is frost
x
It’s almost more than I can bare
And yet in store as in your stare
As in your core, it’s stormy there
Lovers at war are more a pair
x
You’re young of mind but old of heart
I guess I knew that from the start
Untame by name, I should have known
That if, perhaps, you thought you’d grown
x
Beyond the point where we could walk
Without our losing sight of we
That you would not know how to talk
Or take responsibility
x
You hypocrite, you harlot whore
I made my home a scarlet score
Inside your heart, you were my art
Despite our poem you locked the door
x
And in the pause of plausible
That you made up to take your space
I audited the audible
And found my fear to be the case
x
You lied to me and then you left
That’s not enough - cardiac theft?
I like it rough but really dude
With loyalty I’ve never screwed
x
But you and he do what you will
I know you’d do it anyway
Lying is an artistic skill
Lie to yourself and let it sway
x
Your view of what you think I’d do
Despite the fact I’m true to you
You’re loyal right, that’s what you said
Yet you’re willing to share his bed
x
A traitorous and tortured tool
Who I helped shape since back in school
I helped him grow, made sure to show
Him how to know he was no fool
x
A fool of me he has yet made
As has the snake with which he laid
And could I cast a cogent curse
I would not will it any worse
x
So as I end my final verse
I hope my tone is not too terse
I loathe that you’d let our love fade
You’ve never yet, your piper, paid.
About the Creator
Insinq Datum
I'm an aspiring poet, author and philosopher. I run a 5000+ debating community on Discord and a couple of Youtube channels, one related to the Discord server and one related to my work as a philosopher. I am also the author of DMTheory.
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