i’m not someone that likes to stare the future too hard in the face. i also don’t like to look back into the past to the point of being distracted. for better or worse, i’m a very ‘ live in the now ‘ type of person. for better or worse, i’m always overwhelmed by the present.
a lot of the time, i’m not entirely sure of anything. everything always melts into this big mush in my brain, so sorting my thoughts is a task and a half; the only thing that brings me a sense of certainty is that i want you by my side. always. i do know that, eventually, i have to confront some of my own personal issues. but, that’ll be a long time from now. i want you by my side. but, what about five years from now? ten? twelve?
how about we buy a house far away from everyone, but close enough to some little markets? i like the one we already have, but we have too many neighbors and i desire more space. we’ll have a nice garden. two-sided. one for the flowers. tulips and hydrangeas and lilies. those roses that are so dark that they almost look like midnight. the other garden will be for our more practical plants. like pea pods and herbs and tomatoes bigger than a hand fruit. a little pond full of koi, a swing for us, and a playhouse for the kids. you deserve the sense of peace. you deserve it more than anyone else i’ve ever known. the world’s hurt you. people who were supposed to love and protect you did not do that. and, while i hope they burn in hell for that, i’m gonna spend that anger doing the protecting. let me protect you and love you when those that should’ve did not. after all, you always stick your neck out to protect me.
sometimes, when you touch me, i can feel through your hands that you think you’re unworthy. never think that. i married you, didn’t i? i said ’ yes ’ without thinking twice about it. didn’t need to. never forget that i love you. i know i’m annoying and i can be an absolute menace, but i love you despite all of that. isn’t it nice that we have each other, no matter what happens? when the going gets tough, we kiss.
About the Creator
rae.
everything is happening all the time!
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