Letter 07/15/20

07/15/20

Dear Unnamed,

There is a difference between promising forever and giving forever. If I promise you my forever, I allow myself to be trapped. If things get broken, it won’t matter— I promised forever, so now I am stuck. And I refuse to be trapped. But I will gladly give you my forever, for then it is my choice to stay. If things get broken, I can take care of myself. I will stay as long as it is healthy, But, if I mromise, I’m bound to stay even when it’s not. I will never promise you forever because I want the choice to stay, to love you. If I promise, all freedom and genuineness is taken away. Let me give that to you, let me choose, let it be genuine. I will love you forever, if you want me to, but it will be both our choices to stay. I will never promise my forever, and I will never ask you to promise yours. But my forever is yours as long as you want it because you are worth being loved forever. I’m not saying I will love you forever as a promise. I’m saying it because it’s true that I’ll give it to you that long, if that is what we both want. Maybe giving and promising apppear the same, and it is true they are cousins, but they share different last names— they are Intention and Meaning. So I will give you as long as you wish because I want to not because I have to.

Love,

Yours